armorbearer (2006 blog)

the last meme of 2006

2007-01-02T23:43:00.000+08:00

the last meme of 2006.

1. When is the last time you held hands with
someone?
- last night at St James.

2. You wake up as the opposite gender, what's the
one thing you'd do?
- OMG. buy a ton of dresses. or if i look absolutely hideous (which won't happen), i'd sign up for extreme makeover else fall asleep and pray that i'll grow back mah balls.

3. Have you ever crawled through a window?
- mmmm.. big ones yes, small ones no, i treasure my manhood.

4. Where is your mum?
- upstairs in her room.

5. Morning or night person?
- night. NIGHTLIFE! :)

6. What was the last movie you watched?
- 3 good men (San Ge Hao Ren) during NYE celebration with ivy and co. this was full, if thsoe that we fell asleep while watching, would be Little Nicky & I Not Stupid Too, all on NYE.

8. Any cool scars?
- one under my lower lip. i tink it's coz i fell down or something.

9. Things about the opposite sex you notice first.
- opposite sex? hair.

10. What do you do when no one is watching?
- pick my nose like a dog with rabies. ha.

11. Ever been in love?
- always have always willl.

12. What's something your friends make fun of you
for?
- my bad taste in guys (nudges weiming and mandy), my crumbling house (nudges lifang adn bryan), my stumbling over words (nudges ivy and co.)

13. What is your curfew?
- no curfews, just mind games and guilt trips.

14. Would you ever dye your hair red?
- dyed before and colour lasted only 2 days. bah.

15. You + alcohol=
-
A) face down on table sleeping
B) walking all around the club looking to matchmake my friends (which some turned out quite well actually)
C) start talking non stop about how dry my hair is (or doing the PR thing of air kissing)
D) excessively stroking hair (on head) or hugging people with a big smile on my face.
E) being excessively bitchy

usually it's C,D, or E.

16. What's your worst personality flaw?
- mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.

17. What career would you wish to be in?
- Public Relations, Marketing.

18. Which country would you like to visit?
- Los Angeles with kayim and althea (ED HARDY!), Taiwan with family, Krabi with cousins, Adelaide with lover (this positions still available)

19. Do you want a well paying job or a job you
enjoy?
- enjoy. coz if i enjoy, i'll do it passionately and in turn will come promotions and pay raise.

21. Do you believe in needing a religion?
- yes

23. When were you last on the phone?
- with korkor george just now over a very stupid mistake on names.

24. What were the shoes you wore today?
- black gold converse shoes

25. Do you like maths?
- ARGH. maths make me mad

26. What about history?
- okay lar.

27. Have you ever seen 5 squirrels at one time?
- open season.

28. Can you touch your nose with your tongue?
- no.

29. Do you have a brother?
- yea

30. Did your great grandad fight in the civil war?
- not sure of great grandad, but my grandpa was imprisioned by government suspected of being a chinese communist.

31. Who's your favorite person to talk to online?
- gorgeous mandy moo, yongmin, ernestt!, actually lotsa people.

32. Have you ever used photobucket?
- yes but stopped.

33. Do you like hugs?
- COME HERE YOU! :)

34. Do you want to be a doctor?
- no, but i'd love a PHD. LOL.

35. Have you ever fallen asleep with gum in your
mouth?
- yes. very scary one.

36. What do you do right before you go to bed?
- put FRIENDS on 30 mins timer and watch till i fall asleep over and over.

38. Right when you get out of bed?
- pee. in. the. toilet.

39. Would you date a girl/boy with hair
longer than yours?
- girl yes. boy NO. yuck. no f4 twits pls.

40. Do you want to be famous?
- who doesn't.

41. Do you do your own laundry?
- no

42. Anyone on your mind at the moment?
- 2 .. hot..

family dinner.

2006-12-31T20:29:00.000+08:00

having a family dinner with BOTH sides of the family is like sitting in with the counsel of elders. such great opinions of current events, such as Saddam's execeution, GST prices, JC scandals and the like.

*

waiting for the CG to come over to countdown and i'm so drowsyy i coluld just .....

2006 about to be over..

2006-12-31T13:31:00.000+08:00

181 posts for 2006.
that averages to about 1 post for every 2 days.

but we all know that average is not a definitive answer.

"oh, you're of average weight" (that means you're about to be fat, you michelin man you)
"oh, you're of average standard" (buck up or you're expelled)

okay, maybe the latter is OTT.

*

so today's the last day of 2006.

i don't know, this year has been very mundane, my perspective of life is rather dulled and greyed. x'mas has come and gone, and there's not much oooomph about it. much less about NYE.

but i gotta give thanks to the Almighty of course, giving me the very youthful age of 19, being able to have the typical limbs, organs and all that working, giving me friends i love hanging out with.

but i gotta change my perspective. it's not funny being such a sorry dory everyday.

people say that i'm a extraordinarily happy person, and what has happened to me now? such a dulled out dried prune. nggggggh.

like i've told many of ya guys, burnt out from things.. there's replenishment.. but the source.ah that's debatable.

as much as i've made my decision for other certain things..

"When the oceans rise and thunders roar,
I will soar with You above the storms.
Father You are king over the flood,
I will be still, (and) know You are God."

*

i remember i gave blog awards a few years ago on my upsaid.com (that's eons ago right) as well as my previous blogs and all that.. maybe i'll do it tonight or something if i have time. best song, best movie and all that.

also, i'm still torn between blogger.com or livejournal.com for 2007's blog. esp with NS coming up, i wonder if its even worth putting up a blog. coz if i don't have a blog, i'll internet less, meaning other more meaningful things will be achieved.

mmmmm. thinking too much again.

btw. CI? maybe i'm becoming a SI. lol.

positives and negatives 2006.

2006-12-29T01:42:00.001+08:00

was reading mandy gorgeous pandy dandy moo soh (she isn't irish, she's just precious!) and saw her doing up her good and bad of 2006.

i'll do up one

which fyi is different from resolutions!

+ the POSITIVES!

- having the extraordinary strength to pull through specs and having the commitment for such a long term project. it's such an eye opener even though i've been doing the producer role. everyday is indeed a learning journey.

- i finally got my first AD! in effective people management. yes, i've been whining to get an A, not alone an AD, so this is definitely thanking God for making the impossible possible!

- i won't say much about religion. much things are better left unsaid lest things might be misinterpreted and dispersed onto the grapevines.

- friends. in a sense, the people [outside of church] who have stuck with me through thick and thin, by that i mean kok hui fen denise aka KOK, cynique josh ho yong min, aka YM. these pals have been with me for like eons, and by eons, i mean past the year count, showing much loyalty and concern (even though one is attached hurhurhurhuhruhruhurhur) and i really thank God so much for putting you two in my life, coz you guys have persevered and seen me through my different emotional lapse and hurdles.

-church members, namely e374! it's been an exciting year, i don't know about tomorrow but i'll just cherish today. such a channel of blessing in my spiritual health is ivy who has never failed to speak the correct word in the correct season in my life. she really blows my mind on how much God can do through such a willing and obedient leader (with a heart of a servant). Joshua is also such a man who is able to balance his commitments (both church and secular). and he gives me little surprises that always pulls me through the day with a happy face. e374 is such a warm group, though we may not go out as often as other cgs, we're close when we meet up.

-Work. Thank GOD that i've been given Award Music School as a chance to start teaching, it has increased my financial input and hence given me a chance to be more generous with my chicas and friends.

-Work part II. InstantKarma has really been a turning point in my life, where i'm challenged to do intense marketing and sales of the products. Aside from being educated in independent sales (i.e one person in a shop), i've made a bunch of very happy people in the shop, and our inter-relationships have gone deeper with outings outside of work, such at Attica & St James, so heres cheers to my bosses C&J, Carine, Michelle, Ashila and of course, my darlingest mambo-is-to-the-left-to-the-left MANDY "GORGEOUS" SOH. :)

-Work part III. MOX. yes, another educational breakthrough in the area of nightlife. working under B has been very.. informative, i get to learn the different beers, wines and mixers that MOX sells, i guess again, you learn something new everyday. and i began to see that straight people aren't that narrow minded (contrary to previous encounters).

-Family. a Mother who is so patient kind and understanding. cousins who are always ready to go out with me. uncles and aunties who are ever so generous.

-Life. just basically being able to wake up everyday with oxygen in my lungs. is already a positive side of 2006. thank you God.

now, we move onto the less desirable..

- the NEGATIVES -.-

-not having a stable mind. like hello, i'm a walking timebomb at times, twice i snapped back at a person of authority.. thoughts of leaving and going down another road. and i'm still trapped at this vice.

-impatience. i struggle with this alot especially in the spiritual walk. period. enuff said.

-emo-ness. i cry alot to sleep at times. just thinking and thinking. refer to point 1.

-plastics. and i don't mean the bags from markets. just people in general. the rainbow circle in singapore is rather plastic, and i tend to sow into the wrong people's lifes. and i don't reap the benefits. aside from the rainbow world, school is tough, the people you work with, could be genuinely interested in making friends with you and doing a good job, some are just for the latter.

-tardiness / non-punctual. i seem to be late frequently for outings... especially in town.

-procrastination. nuff said too. i made a resolution mid year to keep my desk neat at all times, and now it's a 2nd clothes rack.

*

shan't name all my vices here, if not, i'll give a solution.. and that'll be a RESOLUTION.

so leave it for anothertime.

happy thanksgiving to e374, e333, w396, s35, n329, e328, e412, n353! (did i miss anyone out?)

Zoukie Zouk

2006-12-28T16:03:00.000+08:00

Zouk yesterday night was baaaaaaaaaaad.

as always, i always laugh at Mambo, those straight men trying to do synchronised dance moves with a blardy straight face trying to impress the chicas? plssss. -.- lol. but i CONFESS i do it too once in a while. *nudges gorgeous*, but i can get away with it. coz "i IS hot SEX". :P

but didn't leave a good taste in my mouth (non literally speaking you perverts)

maybe it was just me not used to RnB music after so long (OMG. the last time was.. june with keshia @ MOS?)

maybe it was the weather and it's cold and hot scenarios within the club.

maybe it was the crowd. dumbass wannabe-black posers! trailer trash.

maybe it was the music, not really leh. i enjoyed Phuture quite a bit.. first time there.

maybe it was queueing. nah no, got signed in by darling wai yi. WHEE.

maybe it was the people there, YES, omg, freaking pushing their way in to Phuture is no no fun for me.

maybe it was not drinking. haaa.. could have made me less cranky either way.

maybe it was the company i was with? HELL NO. i was with gorgeous and her MDIS friends.. they were awesome and fun to hang out with. coz they is hot sex. HAHAHA.

maybe it was old friend C___ C____ who pangsay.. or yongmin whom i couldn't find where he was after his double O trip. mmmm. oh oh oh ! i saw a CHC member there too, scandalous right. wahhahaa. and she's quite well known. mmmmmmmmmmm. -zips-

maybe it was meeting so many familiar faces at Spize at 0330hrs. Franny Jacq from Cirque, Lania LUOHANYU! , Daryl from St James, the dude who works at NUM, Carl from MOX.

i'm such a butterfly. *social flutter social flutter*

and now, still truckloads of phelgm, i gotta swear off nightlife till Monday! St James Powerhouse. what a way to start the new year. and yes, resolutions are coming up soooooooon i suppose.

the past days.

2006-12-27T12:53:00.000+08:00

let's take a little trip around itczys little town
in the itczytown city bussssss.
with x'mas eve and boxing day,
no gatorade and wasted-ness

becoz it's ...... *switches off music*

yes it's annoying isnt' it.

okay.

before working at bianco for bernice's party, (which was really an eye opener) i accompanied korkor george and newfoundfriend william to Ben's housewarming. Loadsa Alcohol / Wine to go around, complimented with fresh fruits of grapes, cherry and other seed-filled finger food. Of course, not forgetting the cheese that goes very nicely with the chardonnay and merlot. oh yeah, partying at Tabs with the colleagues at Mox. haha. they're damn funny.

ahh, ya gotta be there to know what it's like. it's awesome!

x'mas eve! service was goood. the play was funny but some parts fell flat, but overall it reminded me of love.

after having a delightfully delicious (oh alliterations) at cousin angel's house , the night was mainly working at MOX on x'mas eve hereby after celebration at Happy with Dillon and Bernice. Korkor george was spinning his swan song at Happy. didn't dance much, just mulled over something with dillon and bernice.

MERRY XMAS! yes yes, x'mas day, i kinda forgot what i did, but i woke up like in the afternoon and mulled around i guess. followed by meeting up with GORGEOUS! mandy pandy dandy moo to Vivo for her x'mas shopping. aside from getting chomel necklaces for my maid and aunty, we lucked out.

Weiming that slarrrrrt came later. it's been eons since i hung out with him sia. t'was great, having coffee nearby to St James was relaxing and the weather was cooling enough not for me to ~~sweat~~ perspire.

we went into St James Powerhouse through the guestlist which afterward mandy and weiming did something so evil but funny. shhhh.

the night was great aside from the lousy service (45 mins for freakin drinks). Music was great, bumped into so many familiar faces.. FSV shan, a lecturer and many hi-and-bye friends, not forgetting drunken stuporness such as _____________________________________.

Boxing day! worked at Cathay which was dull as dishwater. no one comes to cathay on boxing day!

Night was an annual boxing day dinner organised by Korkor Alvin & Royston & Co. at a friends house in the east. the house was GINORMOUS can. and the food was awesome, 2 roasts, pasta, OPEN BAR!~!! chatted till like 3am and alvin was nice enough to fetch me home.

and now i'm here with a tsunami truckloads of phelgm and getting ready for work and shopping with gorgeous, followed by MAMBO tonight at zouk. my sophomore appearance at that cheesy synch dance moves, and i hope BFF is coming too. YA HEAR ME FENG HUI -.-

EMO MOMENT.

2006-12-21T01:04:00.000+08:00

i'm very satisfied with who i am and what i am now.

there are tinges of remembrance of what my promises were made. but i need to let it slip. the long term benefits are just too far for me to realise how much i need.

but all i need now, is self satisfaction.

emo moment is over (snap).

thank you so much mandy pandy moo moo gorgeous! :) i love the SUPERMODEL top (very apt!) and Aviators. i know this was such a paparazzi shot, but bear with it. coz i heart mandy! also, thanks fer the love offering.

watch out for your x'mas present. it's gonna blow you away... or at least move your hair a bit lar. HAHA.

forgot to comment on St James Powerhouse for DJ George Leong's (or affectionately known as George Kor Korrrrr) maiden performance there.

L2R Me, Kenny, Daryl

went with the instantkarma crew people (no pictures till JERALDINE comes up with it pls)

the crowd was ballistic, and hope that sales will go up due to all of us [cough*gorgeous*cough] wearing the instantkarmic clothings.. also, met a few loyal/regular customers there.

also bumped into kenny, greg, tim, daryl and pam. :) hence the picture!

the ceiling was quite high, and as tim mentioned, rather "impersonal" rather than attica. but more space = less body contact = happy itczy.

MOX is fun, learning the drinks and the ingredients, such an eye opener to my usual waitering at Sizzler, or retail at MOX, or piano at Award.

i guess i'm learning and learning. that's whats life is all about yeah.

CHRISTMAS LIST ILLUSTRATED

2006-12-19T01:20:00.001+08:00

Dear Santa,

i know i have been procrastinating on my christmas list for this year, but 6 days to christmas is still quite early in my last-minute-shoppers-opinion. So here are a few things that i woud like this christmas.

1. The Paul Smith Story EDT

i like it's peppery smell alone with its chic design. the odour lasts longer and i don't really want to smell like DKNY red/green apples all the time.

2. Creative Zen MicroPhoto 8GB player

yes, my creative muvo TxFM 256Mb player has served me well for the past 3 years, i feel that it's time to move on to classier things such as the microphoto. though it can't play video and i don't know what on earth will i use the photo thing for, i like it's size and capacity of 8gb. how cool is that?

3. Ed Hardy Men's Track Jacket, Cowboy Skull size SMALL.

Yes, dearest santa, you should know that i'm into the Ed hardy Designs and what christmas list is complete without that?

4. Abercrombie & Fitch Shorts

yes, probably the cheapest item of the lot, i have been surviving on using the old BUM shorts i found at the back of the closet and a discounted GANT berms, but Man does not live by 2 breads alone, he needs a totally new spanking oven.

5. NUM boy. HAHAHA. kidding

he's probably the friendliest NUM staff i've seen. he's at NUM Heeren Vintage Tees Outlet, the one next to RE-. i think his name is Kel. Him and his long haired colleague were very friendly and considerate to my demands of a nice vintage tee, so decided to dedicate one space just fer him.

not saying he's gay or anything PLEASE. -.-

*****

Santa, that's all i want for christmas. But if you really want to know my Boxing Day List, New Years Eve List, New Years Day List, and Post New Year Day List. i'll be glad to list it out :)

Seasons Greetings,

ITCZY

Ed Hardy Satisfaction Part 1 - the potassium tee.

2006-12-19T00:32:00.000+08:00

so i'm semi happy. just for a while. and no, i don't sniff new clothes that much. i don't look fetch enough at the moment to properly pose. maybe an ed hardy catwalk when i feel like it.

kudos again to pam, cheryltan and KAIYIM. "JENNIFER" haha.. tabata, lv 4 zara and so much bitchings. wheeeeeee..

a brief ponder.

2006-12-18T23:09:00.000+08:00

there's something so appealing about the past.

be it mine or anyone elses.

there's a sense of comfort, nostaglia, reminiscence.. and of course, lyrical waxing.

it's hard to explain. but any of you guys out there think of mixing the past with the future? what if it clashes? your beliefs then and now, your values and morals then and now?

something to ponder on this drizzly monday night.

ex-bf alert

2006-12-18T21:20:00.000+08:00

how quaint.

i saw my ex-bf at st james yesterday and a handful of ex-dates.

and while i was with the matriach read: MUM, i bumped into 2 ex-dates.

just when i had sworn off relationships these signs come in.

bah. humbug.

*

got a new ed hardy top, special thanks to kaiyim, cheryl(tan) & Pam for their opinions and advice on which top to buy. it'll take some time to get used to it lar.. but at least the sleeves are longer. =D

to .. that friend.

2006-12-17T15:49:00.001+08:00

discrimination.

my my, seems like friendship didn't really happen between you and i bro.

i guess that's how life plays out fer us then.

we were afterall, basing our interactions on a dice with no numbers/dots. FAITH? lol. okay.

MOX AND BIANCO TOMORROW!

2006-12-15T00:02:00.000+08:00

ah yes, it's very penguin to say that i'm starting my 3rd job tomorrow at MOX/BIANCO.

~~it's a ~~gay bar~~ bar that has a rainbow inclination.~~

~~i don't care what you overly-holy hollies and harrys say, i'm still taking up this job.~~

~~aiya, just coz it's rainbow doesn't mean anything will happen please. -.-~~

i can't wait to start this job, first nightlife job eh. mmmm, and at a place so familiar.

we celebrated janice's birthday with a surprise through rainy weather and a big song at the online room at level 9.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAREST JANICE LOW XIAO HUI! =D

so i've been approached by millians to be part of an external IBP project as a producer again. wondering if i should take it up.

i'm quite happy with my weekends now.

A SURPRISE!

2006-12-14T00:49:00.000+08:00

i received a mystery delivery package for me at InstantKarma around 2pm today. consisting of

and

whoever it is, thank you very much, you made my day, and i REALLY REALLY want to know who gave this to me. *innocent*

c'mon you itczy-stalkers..

SPECS>

2006-12-13T10:30:00.000+08:00

everything was too smooth.

tts why it happened.

sigh.

the most horrible meme (probably done by a twit)

2006-12-12T02:57:00.000+08:00

1. Name 1 thing that you would like to
do most.
/ I'd like to earn MONEY. MONEY MONEY MONEY. and then buy lotsa clothes, have my bank account be full o moolah, and then invest it and watch'em grow and retire early. whee!

2. The last friend who wrote you a
testimonial?
/ Auntie Jiawei. whoohoo. dao face nehnehpok.. -.-

3. Cartoon that you will watch until
you get old?
/ Spongebob (:

4. Do you have a crush on someone right
now?
/ yes i do. i do a lot.

5. Things that make you laugh so badly?
/ perennial pictures crew, Z, very unglam people.

6. Besides eating and drinking what's
your everyday habit?
/ CLEANING THYSELF (i.e bathing)

7. One of your very best friend in your
life?
/ None.

8. What character is yours according to
people say?
/ seriously, i feel that a twit invented this meme. look at it's broken english. let me rephrase this.

8. According to others, name a quality you possess.
/ affable.

9. What a dirty slank word you say it
everyday?
/ slank word? SLANG LAR. omg. i wanna slap the person upside down.
"cheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeese" it's a very good substitute for ... nvm.

10. If you meet someone that you dont
like?
/ Smile and look away.

11. If you have a conversation with a
slow thinker?
/ hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm... i would ... hmmmmmmmmmmmmm.. *hesitates, pauses*

12. The last person who called you
/ Z

13. The last thing you ate?
/ Tissue Prata (which, accordingly to leslie, stands in a cone shape thanks to hair spray. lol. it's a joke btw)

14. Last sms today that you receive?
/ from Z! :)

15. Last time you fall in love?
/ it's not gonna be the last time.

16. The last time you said "I LOVE
YOU"?
/ in an sms to ____

17. The last time you saw a person you
have crush on?
/ always. lol. but i'm faithful!

18. Whats the last song you like?
/ Fergie - London Bridge (yes, still in my head)

19. Last time you find it hard to fall
asleep?
/ everyday.

20. Last Q, what you will do tonight?
/ think of a way to make Z feel so welcomed after camp.

FUK XING LUK IS OVER! shooting wise.

2006-12-10T13:33:00.000+08:00

fun night at taboo with les wendy and lawrence.. handbag nites are always so fun to sing along to. lol.

FUK XING LUK IS FINALLY OVER TODAY. 14 days of pure madness, but i have to thank everyone for putting in their effort in their respective departments, i have only praise for 'em.

tomorrow's telecine-ing, a bit worried, but i'm glad one big hurdle is over, on to accompanying janice at the post pro / online room whilst she synchs, i do budgeting.. oh it's such a pain collecting those itsy bitsy receipts! >_<

tonight, watching open season with Z at vivo. so my first there, i'm such a country bumpkin.

and APOLOGIES .... to gorgeous mandy pandy dandy moooooo for being a pilot and flying her aeroplane last friday.. friend really needed me ):

mmmmm. now that filming is over, time to do lots of things, busy bee busy me!

-meet Impact Modelling Agency
-meet UAN
-do up portfolio shoot
-LOSE BODY FAT
-Sort out closet
-Sort out desk
-Sort out spiritual life
-Sort out Post NS Plans
-Start Working at MOX Bar & Cafe (PS: i got the job! training starts next week)
-Resume Working at Instantkarma
-Budget my Financial Expenditure
-Do Post Production Booklet for FUKXINGLUK
-Post out applications for any short films etc..
-Gym more often and lose the love handles
-CLOTHES CLOTHES CLOTHES =D
-Ketchup with kok, mandydandypandygorgeousmoo, elf, kailin, e374, ivy, bronty..

oh the list can go ON and ON and ON.. but yeah, pretty much my december
oh oh i forgot!

-X'MAS SHOPPING. those who want things in particular (and within the realistic expectations that are subtley given through out time as friends)

okay, that last line isn't cohesive or smooth sounding, so to put it bluntly, don't expect too much okay!

ouch.

2006-12-08T01:28:00.000+08:00

"Not now, my children, not now."

The False Messiah
Deliberate Brutal Love Master (DBLMm)

People believe in you, and then you send them to hell. Behold, the False Messiah.

You're usually a very kind person, and conscientious, too. Socially, you're a leader, and your friends and associates look up to you. In intimate relationships, you're a capable, responsive, and experienced lover. Outside the box, however, you run into trouble.

Your exact opposite:
The Pool Boy

Random Gentle Sex Dreamer

Girls fall hard for you, but you're much more ambivalent about them. The beginnings of your relationships are unusually intense, making it all the rougher on her when they end. At first, using all your accumulated tricks of the trade, you ladle on the affection. But once she's all covered in soup, you withhold the true napkins of commitment. What's that all about? We should've called you the False Waiter.

You're looking for Love. But history tells us you struggle to settle down and accept it. There's a deep streak of carnality within you. And while you'll never be a predator, you'll always fight the urge to roam free. You like to plan things out, so plan this: find someone who can indulge your selfish side, has a healthy sexual appetite, and doesn't mind uncertainty.

FLEE: The Sonnet, The Window Shopper

PURSUE: The Stiletto, The Peach, The Nymph

Link: The 32-Type Dating Test by OkCupid - Free Online Dating.

memes after a long time.

2006-12-06T09:59:00.000+08:00

1.Where did you take your default
pic?
friendster? joshua made it for ivy's b'dae card.. (see previous entry)

2. What exactly are you wearing right
now?
SAFTI tank + PE shorts. fashionamama

3. What is your current problem?
contemplating on how to spend my last few months before NS -.-

4.What makes you most happy?
doing what i want when i want and with who.

5. What's the name of the song that
you're listening to?
Madonna - Get Together (hit makers remix). i know the song choice is rather gay, but i saw it on the D&G Summer 2007 catwalk and it was uber nice! :D

6. Has anyone you've been really close
with passed away?
nopes.

7. Do you ever watch MTV?
totally.

8. What's something that really annoys
you?
screechy sounds, overly twit-ed twits viewing my profile and when i see theirs, it's choked up to the brim with lousy htmls such as too jarring backgrounds, too much images here and there, glittery fonts and mismatched font sizes. tch.

Chapter 1:
1.Middle name: timothy

2.Nickname(s)
zhi, isaac.

3.Current place?
home

4.Eye color?
deeeeeep brown.

Chapter 2:
1. Do you live with your parents?
yes

2. Do you get along with your parent
(s)?
at times

3. Are your parents
married/separated/divorced?
widowed.

4. Do you have any siblings?
big bro.

Chapter 3: Favorite...

1. Ice Cream:
vanilla or cherry garcia from ben n jerry.

2. Season:
autumn

Chapter 4:
Do You..
1. Write on your hand:
no, i have paper, hello trees!

2. Call people back:
yes

3. Believe in love:
yes

4. Sleep on a certain side of the bed?
not really.

5. Have any bad habits?
whoahohohohoho.

6.Any mental health issues?
am i schizo? yes i am, no you're not. yes i am! no you're not! gett off meeee!

Chapter 5: Have You....
1.Broken a bone:
fractured yes. during a 2.4km practice run in sch in sec 4.

2. Bought new stuff in the last two
weeks?
Fourskin Slippers , NUM vintage tee

3. Have physical therapy?
wth is that. u mean sex? mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm no comment.

4. Gotten stitches?
nopes. but i just did some sewing for the curtains for the shoot.

5. Taken painkillers?
yes

6. Gone scuba-diving or snorkeling?
no

7. Been stung by a bee?
beetle yes. bee no.

8. Thrown up at the dentist?
no

9. Ever sworn in front of your parents?
used to.

10. Had detention:
yes

11. Been sent to the principal's
office:
once before.

12. Been suspended:
no

Chapter 6: Who/What was the last
1.Movie(s) you watched ?
Casper & Wendy from the disney channel, omg classic.

2. Person to text you:
Cheryl to remind us to fill up someones b'dae card (shh)

3. Person you called:
Boss Jing from instantkarma

4.Person you hugged:
faris.

5. Last person you tackled.
whacked would be leslie i tink. haha.

6. Thing you touched..
.....

7. Thing you ate:
fruits and yakult. here comes the purge. lol.

8. Thing you drank:
yakult. PURGE!

9. Time you cried:
2 nights ago.

10. Wished on a star:
sorry, i don't wish. i pray.

birthday collage.

2006-12-06T00:26:00.000+08:00

happy birthday ivy!

TAROT CARD!

2006-12-01T23:48:00.000+08:00

You are The Sun

Happiness, Content, Joy.

The meanings for the Sun are fairly simple and consistent.

Young, healthy, new, fresh. The brain is working, things that were muddled come clear, everything falls into place, and everything seems to go your way.

The Sun is ruled by the Sun, of course. This is the light that comes after the long dark night, Apollo to the Moon's Diana. A positive card, it promises you your day in the sun. Glory, gain, triumph, pleasure, truth, success. As the moon symbolized inspiration from the unconscious, from dreams, this card symbolizes discoveries made fully consciousness and wide awake. You have an understanding and enjoyment of science and math, beautifully constructed music, carefully reasoned philosophy. It is a card of intellect, clarity of mind, and feelings of youthful energy.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

UAN ?

2006-12-01T21:42:00.000+08:00

apparently someone has passed my details and recommended me to UAN which apparently is United Artiste's Network or something, sounds much better than another modelling agency, wait no, a corrupted money sucking grabbish trash bin.. no names here, but close friends should know which modelling agency approached me online, and another on the street sheesh.

sounds like a good deal no? jeanette aw, dawn yeoh graduated from there, sounds good aye.. but nothings confirmed. just wanna concentrate on SPECS first.

good job all, it's very stressed and tiring, but i'm sure what we reap is fetching! :D

DAY 1-3 FUKXINGLUK. INSTANTKARMA FASHION SHOW.

2006-11-29T22:29:00.000+08:00

so during the FUKXINGLUK shoot, i was pretty much doing the backstage (literally) work of welfare and administration. going all the way to bedok north st 5 and/or dover market. as well as doing meagre bitch work such as little things like getting coffee and all that crap, but it's okay. pretty much okay doing this sorta thing as long as ppl stop complaning that i don't do much -.- what can i do? but i do entertain the talents *prances*

an ingenious method made by yours truly on day 2 morning shoot with all the coffee and tea all neatly labelled. look at mine stand out with a black gaffer tape! :D

and as i was just about to throw in the towel and break down in the van after all the hectic work and paranoia building around. Daddy God surprised me with a nice scenery on the way to the caterers for dinner.

and a verse came to me, "be still and know that i am God"

mmmm.

(LtoR) Me, Mandy, Colin, Jing.

oh yes! on sunday night! dropped by Attica for Trevvy.com's Official opening which as INSTANTKARMA'S FASHION SHOW. =D yes, me and mandy moo with our bosses colin and jing which we both loveee long timeee *thai drawl accent*

we're all wearing instantkarma clothing, sexercise dry tank, fabulous maroon jacket, heart lesbian tank, and the new poke'n'moan (pokemon) ringer tee!

the new clothes are amazing. i can't wait to finish the shoot and get some myself. the racerback material is much smoother than another famous rainbowfriendly store.

me and mandy moo on the dance floor, and PS : didja know that she is my brother's secondary sch mate? small world aiiiite.

-----

thank God that today's shoot ended at 2130. time to finish up some paperwork and catch some shuteye. :)

note to self.

2006-11-29T07:42:00.000+08:00

note to self: don't blog when emotionally emo and lethargic. let it slide, you're way above childish behaviour from other people and yourself.

Ed Hardy COLLAGE LAR OMG

2006-11-26T17:52:00.000+08:00

whoever buys me this wins my heart (or at least the retail addiktion part of it)

photo collage.

2006-11-25T00:47:00.000+08:00

i need my social life back.

a stupid MEME

2006-11-25T00:31:00.000+08:00

1.Do you envy somebody this very
moment?
. mmm. not really.

2.Can you tell whether a person is
lying or not?
. if i know the person, yes!

3. Who/What is tattooed on your mind?
. many thoughts

4.Ever had chicken pox?
. don't know.

5.What was the last movie you watched
that made
you cry?
. CLICK.

6.Do you have a friend who's a
bigmouth?
. yes. and he's rather fat too.

7.Do you have a lot of bestfriends?
. no.

8.Do you cry when you get low grades?
. no

9.What is your favorite song ?
. right now, it's Sun Ho - Gone (House Remix)

11.Who freaks you out the most?
. Crazy long haired old people who check for garbage.

12.Who is your brother?
. the guy that lives with me lar. duh.

13.What kind of cellphone do you own?
. Nokie crappy 6280

14.are you in love right now?
. this i seriously don't know

15.is he/she in love with you too?
. He does, He really does.

16.if you could rewind time,at what
moment
would you go back to?
. 3 years ago in sec 3-4, ELDDS. i loveee.

17.who is your biggest enemy?
. my fears.

18. is there somebody that hates you?
. where there's light, there's darkness too.

19.have you experienced having a fight
with
the person you have feelings for?
. nopes. i'm a pacifist.

20.what song can you relate to?
. Sun Ho - Gone.

21.do you torture other people?
. mmmmmmmm *thinks hard* .. not realllllly

22.what do you like better coke or
pepsi?
. pepsi

22.Are you in favor of Romeo and
Juliet's
relationship?
. forbidden love, i can so relate to that

23.What is the best love story you've
ever
known?
. one that i can live out myself.

24.what are you looking forward to?
. a happier itczy.

25.do you think that time stops when
you
finally
see the love of your life?
. i've never encountered that.. or at least i think i haven't.

THE WHO'S**

Who is in the room with you?
. no one. i wish there was though.

Who was the last person to text you?
. pamela

Who are you thinking about now?
. maybe him? or her?

Who did you last talk to on the phone?
. harie j!

Whose house did you last go to?
. mine lah.

Who was the last person you told you
love them?
. the cellgroup.

**THE WHAT'S**

What was the last thing you ate?
. Rendang Burger. first time!

What was the last thing you drank?
. coke lite

What is the closest item near you that
is
blue?
. my dad's bell buzzer from his clinic days.

What are you wearing on your feet?
. a blood clot on my 2nd toe of my feet

What instant messaging service do you
use?
. MSN

What is your favorite website?
. thanks to specialist project, it's gmail.com.

What do you wear more, jeans or skirts?
. dont wear skirts, if i did, i'd need counselling.

What is the last movie u watched?
. The Break-up

What do you currently hear
. Friends Season 2 - The One with the Prom Video

**THE WHEN'S**

When did you meet your best friend(s)?
. No best friends for a long time. but if BFF? that'd be last sunday for BEACH VBALL!

When is your birthday?
. eleventh august

When did you last take a shower?
. before sch todae

**THE WHERE'S**

Where is your phone?
. next to the mouse

Where is your mom?
. next room

Where do you sleep?
. on the BED. eh, how stupid can these questions be?

Where did you get the shirt you're
wearing?
. jiawei, birthday gift from NUM! vintage tee! i likeeeeee =D

Where in your room are you?
. own room

**THE WHY'S**

Why do you have a Friendster?
. to show off how glam i am pls..

Why does basically half the world have
a
Friendster?
to feed our hidden voyeurism tendencies

Why did you pick your Friendster user
name?
. it's isaac timothy chan ZHI yang. duh. wah lau. stupid meme. waste of time.

*kaiyim: pls don't do this! i still respect your blog okie!!!

Where was your main picture taken?
. at BK

FOCUS ON WORK.

2006-11-24T12:32:00.000+08:00

i shan't focus on the negatives of tomorrow, but focus on the positives of today (literally).

TODAYYY..

positive!
-booklets coming up.
-kaiyim's coming for cg tonight.
-a load of le producers work today
-dinner with ivy maybe?

with such happiness. how not to focus on thattttt -whines-

HAHAHAHHAA. okay . i'm getting silly high, must have been the milo from this morning. extra condensed milk.

mmmmm, back to work.

timecheck in the morning..

2006-11-24T04:06:00.000+08:00

0409hrs.

all have left. pretty much tired and HOPEFULLY everyone can give me their department paperworks in time for me to collate.

i'm really tired. dry. aching. fatigued. drained. morally.

but i don't feel like clinging on.

where else to go?

still doing my paperwork. slowly slaving away, trying my best to salvage this 10% i can for this assesment. obviously i'm placing extra work into this as this is my sole reponsibility to do a good booklet.

pride would kill and is the deadliest of all the sins.

TIRED.

2006-11-24T02:32:00.000+08:00

0234hrs.

janice rachel alan zul leslie derrick hariej

the first 6 of us has been together in my living room for about 12 hours already.

we're tired. very tired. but we've grown closer and closer.

*

whom do you let in when they ask and whom do you not let in when they don't?

thought of the day.

i <3 perennial pictures.

2006-11-23T18:22:00.000+08:00

the circle of trust
it shall not rust
coz our word is not trial
for our name's perennial.

Ed Hardy!!!!

2006-11-22T11:07:00.000+08:00

someone kill me prease. i'm on a mad Ed Hardy Spree, and it's all about brown. maybe it matches my tan *GLEAMS*

memes to relieve stress

2006-11-22T10:55:00.000+08:00

1. Ever been given a ring? no. ringer tee yes

2. Longest relationship? 3 days. HAHAHA. my one and only bf about 3 years ago. fwoarlau (yes >_<)

3. Last gift you received? *long pause* the chocolates from kaiyim!

4. How many times have you dropped your cell? mmmm, this current model would have survived 5 drops.

5. Last sport you played? BEACH VBALL =D

6. Things you spend a lot of money on? CLOTHES. (but currently at zero for the whole month ):

7. Thing you ate last? egg tarts from tong heng

8. First thing you notice about the opposite sex? personality and hair.

9. One favorite song? Madonna - Get Together (haaaaaaa, thanks to george, i love the oldie favourites)

10. Where do you live? Orchard Rd baby! :D

11. Last relationship? now it's a covenant with the Almighty.

12. Cell phone service provider? Starhub

13. Favorite mall store? Prefer Heeren or Marina Sq.

14. Longest job held? Sizzler about 2-3 years back? i was there for about 2ish years before i moved on to greener pastures, still holds a place in my heart yeah <3

15. Do you own a pair of dice? yeah i guess.

16. Do you prank call people? mmmm, i feel like doing the "i see youuuuu" with jon or kaiyim. muahahaha!

17. Last person who text messaged you? Director Alan.

18. First FRIEND you'd call if you won a lottery? actually. i wouldn't know.

19. Last time you attended church? last sat

20. Favorite fast food restaurant? SUBWAY!

21. Last incoming call? Drinks Supplier for the shoot.

22. Last time you got drunk? drunk like how drunk? if really drunk on the verge of puking.. that was.. august? oooops. =X

23. Where's your favorite place to eat with friends? company better than venue i'd say. but i wouldn't mind subway. or a place with good atmosphere, oh and clean toilets and nice air conditioning.

24. Can you cook? does boiling water count?

25. What car do you drive? micro machines.

26. Last time u cried? last wed in my sleep i tink.

27. Most hated food? when you're hungry...

28. Thing you like most about yourself? broad shoulders and sparkly eyes *pats back*

29. Things you hate most about yourself? CHIPMUNK CHEEKS and love handles. argghazxc.

30. Last time you had an argument? erm. ytd during set rehearsal.

31. Favorite Movie? i think THE BREAK UP or YOU, ME & DUPREE. watched those during work a few days ago.

32. Name all the races of the people that you've been with? we're in SINGAPORE fyi. so inter-racial congregation is inevitable.

33. Last movie rented? my brother BUYS movies.

34. Favorite alcoholic drinks? Bacardi Breezer, Gin Tonic & Vodka greentea or any mixer with Vodka rather. sheesh, my choices are all so juvenile. :/

35. Favorite perfume? DKNY RED Be Delicious!, The Paul Smith Story (someone buy me this for x'mas plsss!)

36. What are you thinking at the moment? oh no, filming starts this weekend and lack many things! >_<

Things on my mind at the moment

2006-11-22T01:20:00.000+08:00

Yongmin has graciously volunteered to look out for Ed Hardy stuff from San Francisco, LA. OMG. i know. it's like where it all started right?!

aiming for either of these 2 black caps with rhinestone caps! oh yes, the beautiful ghost tee shirt, and a pair of sneakers.

:D happy tim.

SHA VILLA hotel, yes apparently filming there is not enough, relatives and i went to celebrate mum's birthday at the SHA VILLA hotel resteraunt and here my bro took a picture of me pigging out. oh man, i'm getting kicked outta anorexics anonymous.

see what i good boy i am? a mock tail while my havoc-ish cousin Denise takes a HOE-garden. heehee. i made a funny.

good morning towel coutre! oh yes, siloso beach vball last sunday. still LOVE IT ALOT. oh man, i can't wait to play again! :DDDD challenge me, i'm not bad okie.

****

so many things not done yet, so i'm really arghhhh, but it's okay. i can pull through.

i SERIOUSLY just want to be happy.

beach vball

2006-11-20T23:25:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday Kelly Tang! (yes overdue blog post)

the cellgroup at Essential Brew where the party was held. look at pam in a dress! classic!!!

Monday. A quiet day at the beach with BFF and En.. mmmm.. it was not exactly an awesome day. crappy weather + zero players = BOOHOO.

at least we were still positive and optimistic :D

*

Last saturday after service, we went to holland v to eat. then we went to burger king to sit down and talk.

somehow it was really comforting. i really love just talking with the cellgroup. no neeed wham bam thankew maam kinda activities, drop us in a living room with food and maybe a movie or something and we'll all have balls of funnnnn!

anyway, jon came back from Hogs Breath from dinner with his friends and then Josh, Ivy, Me, Jon and Cheryl came to my house to have an Adam Sandler Movie Marathon at 11pm at night.

so glam right? all of us should be on nightlife.sg. CHIONSTERZX!~

so we watched Click.. followed by WaterBoy. i KO-ed around 2pm while the rest watched till 3.

then the next day, i went to the BEACH with BFF, ernie and Jodeville (fenghui,fengen +jocelyn).

IT WAS F-U-N.

SUPER FUN.

i forgot how fun beach volleyballing was.

tan + vball = HAPPY ITCZY.

btw. the sentosa beach and hunks babe team was looking around and they approached me.

GUFFAWS.

so they want a paunchy boyish looking dude to be in the contest? i signed up anyway, all the while giggling (in a masculine way) whilst filling up the form. so if you see me on the sentosa.com.sg board, i'll begin writing out my will. LOL.

but was really surprised why fenghui didn't get approached >_<

afterwards, VIRGIN TRIP TO VIVO CITY with the trio.

okay lar, very dark at 2130hrs. so didn't see much. oh well. another time!

photos up soon. waiting for jodeville.

Attica Party : INSTANTKARMA FASHION SHOW!

2006-11-17T00:00:00.000+08:00

alright! finally, INSTANTKARMA is having a fashion show, and we have a new season so do come down to Attica on the 26th of November to see it :D

ps: looks a bit gay, but i'm expecting something good to happen! =D

Fenghui BEACH! , new bling.

2006-11-15T01:57:00.000+08:00

me and BFF fenghui. yes, as my previous post read.. best friends forever.. okay fine we're not best friends, but it's nice to call her my BFF coz

#1 - i've known her for 7 years
#2 - she's damn gorgeous to hot hunks will be begging to go out with her but i'll be holding a very careful meticulous screening process i.e DOORBITCH to her heart babes. <3
#3 - she's got a twin.

k, point 3 is so redundant but hey. doesn't hurt mentioning. i heart you too en en ernieeeee.

*

new bling on my ears. no more quote unquote daniel "selamat hari raya" earrings (green + red)

yes, i'm going on to class and less crass on quirky colours. bring on the bling!

i just feel we ALL should be more detailed in our conversations as well as always giving people the benefit of the doubt before jumping to conclusions. saves all the confusion, strife and frustration that brings forth from there.

i also feel that we should ALL be more intiative and not let other priorities get in my our way. we're all working hard, some showing it more than the other, some roles doing the backstage to make the people upfront look good.

it may seem to be more work, but patching up is even worse right. all the apologies and the hurts.

"death and life lies in the power of the tongue"

twins for beach!

2006-11-14T00:55:00.000+08:00

so beach today wasn't THAT much of a complete waste, it's been a while since i hung out with my favourite twins (wait, i only know one pair i think)

FENG HUI AND FENG EN
i.e FAYE and ANNA
i.e FENGS and ERNIE

anyway, aside from the horrible and incorrigible weather of a sunless day AND minimum volleyball playing (mental note: don't play vball on a weekday NO CROWD)

got to really ketchup with my BFF [pls tell me u know it's called BestFriendsForever] and my MOAG [ha, engkeong and en called themselves this when me and fh called ourselves BFF]

it seemed like just yesterday we hung out, and that's the thing i like about long-term friendships, we can just pick up from where we left off without having to do the PR level 1 talk. tsk.

mental note : ask elf wong out. OMG.

*

reflections just now whilst i was eating at Subway with the twins. i just felt that friendships needs work. the more you work on it, truly the more you'll get from it.

there are some friendships i wish i could rework but what's done is done and i have to make do with the current situation.

if only i could be there for any friend in need, i would be God. so forgive me folks if i'm not there as a tear-absorbent-shoulder friend or a jump-for-joy-till-i-get-stuck friend too, but without trust in a relationship there is nothing.

ps: fh and fe, tts why i was quite the emo nemo quiet quiet at subway lar. nth about fatigue, i don't get tired THAT easily. hehs.

to ... the friend.

2006-11-12T01:06:00.000+08:00

christian or not,
chc member or not,

you're still a brother to me as well as a friend.

i sms coz i care and i still do about you.

the many outings we had, it wasn't just about godly talk, it was about bonding as friends.

i really don't care what other people said about what you're doing right now or how you feel about the church or God, as long as you're my friend, i shall respect you for your decisions and opinions.

neither will i be fake nor pretentious, but i want you to know that i genuinely still consider you a friend. a friend who has brought me through rather turbulent times, accompanied me through the night on msn, the number of times we played cpu games, the number of times we hung out, the number of jokes we cracked.

they still matter, and they will.

that time when i bumped into you, i genuinely gave you a pat on your back and asked how you were. i didn't ask "how come not in church" or "when you coming back". u know why? i could feel the way you're feeling and i didn't want to jeopardise our friendship based on your decisions. as a friend i should and will respect that cause it's your life afterall.

but i'm taking this time (amongst all the memes) to tell you that you matter to me. I don't care whether you have blocked me on msn, ignored my sms-es etc.. but what you've done for me before remains in my mind and you've honestly been one of the most closest male friend i've had throughout my teen years.

i'm not writing out to gain sympathy, this aren't written by emotions [if it were, it'd be in a much more extreme subtext].

i write by my commitment and my mindset, not by emotions. so i know your compassion for me when i first came in, i know your genorosity when you gave me the billabong pencilcase (which i still use btw).

if i were so angry to you at your actions, would i be writing about the good times we had?

no.

i believe no matter what happens, you have the ability to think for yourself and truly no other human being would know you more than you yourself. And as a fellow human being and a friend, the greatest thing a friend can do is to honour your decisions made.

and i will do that greatest thing cause you ARE my friend, no matter how other people would interpret me.

i'm willing to be humiliated and insulted at through false interpretations of my actions coz our friendship means that much.

3 memes

2006-11-12T00:04:00.000+08:00

The MEME Survey
3 answers to everything.

1) What fairy tales do you think of when you see '3'?

- 3 Little Pigs
- Snow White
- Jack and Jill (?)

2) What are the 3 things you cannot live without currently?

- His Spiritual presence
- Money
- Fashion

3) What are your 3 favourite books?

- Notebook aka IBM hahas.
- Bible
- Catalog magazine

4) What are the 3 types of things in your room that have the most quantities?

- CLOTHES!
- Paper (total abundance thanks to paperwork)
- paper + plastic bags (i love collecting 'em)

5) Who are the 3 friends who keep you sane?

- debbie
- ivy
-

6) Who are the 3 friends whom you think treat you as a big part of their lives?

-
-
-

7) Who are the 3 people whom may think you're indispensable in their lives?

-
-
-

8) Who are the 3 people whom are indispensable in your life?

-
-
-

9) What are the 3 songs that are stuck in your head now?

- Fergie - London Bridge
- CHC - Destiny
- Cassie - Me & You

10) What are the 3 dishes you can eat everyday?

- KFC w/o calories pls
- cereal!
- fruits platter

11) What are the 3 things you can do everyday?

- Self-help Fashion parade
- Pray
- Gym [if it weren't for fatigue]

12) Who do you like to go clubbing/pubbing/chilling out with the most?
in order
- keshia
- korkor alvin
- debbie

13) What do you do when you go clubbing/pubbing/chilling out?

- dance
- people watch
- fellowship!

14) Who are the best people to talk on IM?

- feng en [all i can think right now..]
-
-

15) Who do you think has the most patience around you?

- ivy
- debbie
- practically my whole cellgroup lol

16) What are the 3 things that reduce you to tears almost instantaneously?

- Presence
- Fear of Death
- Low Self esteem / being shouted at

17) What features do you like about yourself?

- skin complexion
- shoulders
- my sexy distinctive >10 moles

18) What personality traits do you like about yourself?

- my mind thinks like a woman at times [*weak* gurrrrl power]
- Being a generous giver [provided i'm fond of you of course]
- Being a person who communicates rather well

19) What are you proud of about yourself?

- I am musically inclined
- I am under a divine protection and an unconditional love affair :)
- My ability to pick up myself from where i left off rather than starting from square 1

20) What do you do when you're down?

- Pray
- Gym [sweat it out baby!]
- cry

21) What do you do when you're bored?

- Daydream
- tv / catwalk [shh!]
- Pray

23) What have you done to regret?

- Not spending time with dad before he ...
- thinking too much
- allowing any cheap form of love to engulf me

24) What do you loathe?

- showoffs
- attention grabbers
- super-anal people [somehow, i feel like i'm describing myself]

25) What will you do with a million bucks?

- tithe and offer
- Buy up the Ed Hardy collection + True Religion Jeans
- Slim wraps, Photoshoots, start up my own clothing line. woo!

26) What will your children's names be?

- Faith
- Esther
- Kingston

27) Where are your favourite countries?

- Singapore
- Australia
- Taiwan

28) What are you thinking of right now?

- how soft my bed is upstairs
- how to finish up building fund pledge asap
- whether to get a drink of water

29) Who do you wish to see now?

- GOD GOD GOD
- her
- a friend whom i can talk to for hours.

30) What are the flowers you like?

- Sunflowers
- Tulips
- Cauliflower (hungry lar dey)

31) What are your favourite designs of clothes?

- aiyo, so obvious ... ED HARDY
- Instant Karma (office pride!)
- NUM / Junk Food [vintage tee label]

32) What do you think are your good friends' weak points?

- i won't tear down my true friends in front of others nor on a public domain
- i won't tear down my true friends in front of others nor on a public domain
- i won't tear down my true friends in front of others nor on a public domain

33) Who do you want to pass this meme to?

- Ky
- anyone else who reads this
- Jiawei

memes AGAIN ):

2006-11-09T22:58:00.000+08:00

top five "dream" jobs:
o1. Show Producer
don't ask, i seriously am considering! be it film or video, i think it's quite cool, plus, i get the most money (most of the time). MUAHAHAHA.
o2. Show's Art Director / Wardrobe Manager
was dealing with the so-called art director of a upcoming kids central show at work today. quite fun, can get to dress up the hosts and talents and all that. woo!
o3. Owner of a club
ahh, yes, to open up my own club, i don't mind that.. silly people pay ALOT to get themselves drunk and then throw it all up few hours later, or worse, get high and do silly things they shouldn't do. ah yes, with my experience i SHOULD know best. lol.
o4. Open up my own clothing line / retail store
instantkarma has finally rubbed something off me. i wanna see my designs down the street-fashion (not coutre and LV crap) runway, along the lines of NUM and all that would be cool, but not with THAT-cheesy statements on my ringers puhleese. [ps: wo <3>
o5. - PR consultant
ah yes, the ability to suck up to high flyers and earn big bucks whilst networking. can i say more? [ps: i KNOW the hard work placed in it DUH. just stating the glam aspects of a dream job pls]

top five films I (love to) watch over and over again:
o1. Charlie's Angels 1 & 2
o2. Shrek 2 ( ivy got me hooked on it)
o3. Scary Movie (any)
o4. The Devil wears Prada
o5. Mortal Kombat (guilty as charged. i love fight scenes)

top five songs I can listen to over and over again:
o1. Fergie - London Bridge
o2. Pussycat Dolls - Buttons
o3. Nelly Furtado - Maneater
o4. Hillsong - Salvation is here
o5. CHC - Sanctuary

top five reasons to watch television:
o1. because my wireless is down
o2. because my laptop is in servicing
o3. because my friends aren't online at the moment [see my preference of internet over tv?]
o4. because there's nickelodeon and disney!
o5. because there are occasional good movies on HBO and StarMovies

top five places i'd want to visit:
o1. Australia (CHEAP SHOPPING!)
o2. L.A (ED HARDY!)
o3. Krabi, Thailand (BEACH BABY!)
o4. Desaru, Malaysia (BEACH BABY!)
o5. Taiwan, Taiwan (FOOD AND SHOPPING BABY!)

top five obsessions:
o1. Ed Hardy
o2. Toned Body
o3. TAN. *URGENT*
o4. Friendster (VOYEURS ALERT!)
o5. Money, or trying to solve the lack of it.

top five beverages:
o1. Bubble Tea @ Heeren's graffiti cafe [a moment on the lips, forever on the hips ):]
o2. WATER
o3. Shirley Temple Mocktail
o4. Orange juice
o5. Bacardi Breezer occasional.

top five favorite past time:
o1. gymming
o2. shopping
o3. tanning *URGENT*
o4. swimming
o5. fashion-parading around orchard.

top five valued belongings:
o1. Wallet, handphone, keys, mp3 player (aiya, no need to say already know impt)
o2. Photos in my computer
o3. God, family (ditto)
o4. friends that matter so much to me for going through thick and thin
o5. my house. my territory. i love it so much i feel like peeing all over to make it known. ha.

***

PS: u KNOW that i'm too lazy to type out what happens daily so get to know me better through this season of memes yeah ? :)

ps: thanks yongmin for dinner. i really appreciate you da-paoing me subway :D

6 random facts about itczy

2006-11-08T01:08:00.000+08:00

Once tagged by this entry, the assignment is to write a blog entry of some kind with six random facts about yourself. Then, pick six of your friends and tag them; no tag backs. This explanation should be included

1) i love love love love LOVE HOUSE music. and please, not all the gay anthems like kylie and madonna (not that they are bad, just not really into 'em).. mmmm, Deborah Cox, Sophie Ellis Baxtor (remixed).. Handbag music is awesome. top 40 remixes are always welcomed, but PLEASE, no kelly clarkson remixed, that's so ugh.

2) i love playing volleyball, i really missed those saturday afternoons down at sunset bay with the girls (fenghui&en, choops, jocelyn, yuting) hearts babes. :D not only a delicious tan, but toning the entire body. and the atmosphere is so Paris Hilton's "Stars are blind"

3) my sms-es are always littered with "lol" and "...." [dots in between]. Rarely do i reply with one worded answers, what to do? call me Mr sociable.

4) a romantic getaway would be at a beach resort like Krabi or Desaru, where my partner and i would be suntanning and having dinner within the hotel resteraunts (did i mention i hate going out to foreign places for dinner aside from the hotel territory esp when there's no shopping?)

5) I take town outings as a fashion parade, really! and it really means more to me now that i'm working IN town -_- that i should take every advantage (i.e off day or IBP day) to dress up coz this bod is gonna get fitter and fitter. whoo.

Fenghui, Jordus, Jiawei, Janice, Fang, Charlene meis.

gonna be alright.

2006-11-05T22:36:00.000+08:00

and it's gonna be alright,
cause You are in my life.
And You have
shown me the way,
all of my troubles,all of my life i give to You my
king.
-Hillsong London - Gonna Be Alright

i feel very uplifted now, the service yesterday and the presence really had a strong impact on where i was.

just as the song goes, it's gonna be alright. really! :)

was reading the sunday comics and saw this quote.

"Learn to write your hurts in sand and your blessings in stone"

amen and amen :D

there's been alotta things going on, particulary with fuk xing luk, but everythings gonna be alright.

gonna be gonna be gonna be gonna be alright.

and thank you God for challenging me once again right before pledging. for i am very sure what's precious to me is precious to You.

emotional wreck

2006-11-03T23:38:00.000+08:00

i'm seriously an emotional wreck.

how much are our thoughts subjected to a whirlwind of changes and the perennial adjustment to the things around us?

*

when everyone starts depending on me to be THE person i want to be, but who can i pour out to when i need?

why isn't there anyone out there for me to confide in. Sure God can of course, but anyone in the physical world here?

*

so sorry if i disappointed anyone, but you know better than to just chuck me in one side thinking that i can live on my own.

it's scary isn't it?

the world,
it's scary isn't it?
when the world caves around you, leaning on your shoulders ALL the while, people pressuring you to do things that you can't do on your own.

ponderings.

2006-11-02T22:42:00.000+08:00

just as a man thinks in his heart, so is he

it resounded in my head, but it seems that it really is something i must learn to absorb into my spirit.

mmmmm.. i guess that's really true.

guard your heart with all diligence, for out of it flow the issues of life..

that was something i learnt and remembered.

***

dinner with charlene and zyun (char-mander & pika-zyun) was fun, apparently korean culture is SO in, as testified by charlene, so yeah. kimchi, kamsahamida, anihaseyo and sarangheyo to all. :D

memes!

2006-11-01T00:45:00.000+08:00

1. Single, taken or crushing.
single.

2. Are you happy with your life now?
rather :)

3. When you meet the right person, do you fall in love with him/her fast?
mmmmmm... i think it took me quite a while before i fell..

4. Have you ever been heart broken?
does the logo of lacoste and crocodile look the same?

5. Do you believe that there are some circumstances, where cheating love is acceptable?
no. honesty isn't the best policy, it's the ONLY policy.

6. Would you take someone back even if he/she cheats on you?
it's hard.. i'm rather a bitter betty.

7. Have you ever talked about marriage to someone else before?
countless. lol.

8. Do you want children?
YES YES :D love 'em.

9. How many?
hoping to have 3 daughters. then can dress them up uber glam. one will be uber sporty, one uber posh and one uber pretty. nice right. machiam spice girls. Ha.

10. Would you ever consider adoption?
would, but i'd rather have my own creation. whee!

11. If someone likes you now, what do you think is the best way for him/her to let you know his/her feelings?
through telling me face to face. :)

12. Do you enjoy getting into relationships?
yes, but there's always the fear of commitment. working on that!

13. Do you believe in love at first sight?
not really, could you walk past me again? HAAA. seriously, i think at first sight.. would be lust.

14. Do you believe you can change someone?
yes, the power of love baby, the power of love.

15. If you could get married somewhere. where would it be?
church + where my wife wants to marry. (ps : i still wear the pants in the marriage prease)

16. Do you give in easily when fighting?
yes, much the pacifist.

17. Do you have feelings for someone right now?
mmmmmm.. yes?

18. Do you ever wish that you could have had someone but you messed it up?
YES, but now the feelings have pretty much subsided.

19. Have you ever broken a heart?
countless. i'm quite the charmer. heehee.

20. If one day your best friend falls in love with the guy/girl you are deeply in love with, what would you do?
i'll leave it to the girl to decide, for what use is forced love?

21. Are you missing anyone right now?
mmmm. not really, quite content, thinking of a few close friends though.

22. Now you have to ask 5 of your friends to do this survey in their blogs.
Kai Yim, Fenghui / Faye, JordusLimBinGMEI, Charlene meimei.. that's about it. thanks jiawei for the meme :D

***

ps I HATE linksys, spent 2 hours on the phone trying to fix it and in the end have to replace the router. stupid stupid. argh.

and i can't go to the gym tml, and i can't suntan properly coz i'm starting work at 11ish. SIGH.

nvm. remain positive. :D

memes for a midnight.

2006-10-30T23:53:00.000+08:00

1.Which sibling, if any, do you get along with
best?
.i'll go for "if any". only 1 older bro but we don't share deep feelings and all that.

2. Which parent lets you get away with more stuff?
.single parent pls. next.

3. Who was your best friend in elementary school?
.primary school? mmmm.. christopher yang!

4. Who was the last person you called?
.cheryl and winnie.

5. The last person that called you?
.sarah vanessa, she was working at SKIN and i helped her buy chocolate. i know i'm nice :D

6. The last person that texted you?
.JORDUS LIM BING JIE.

7. The last person you texted?
.JORDUS LIM BING JIE.

8. The last guy you hugged?
.jon in church.

9. The last girl you hugged?
.probably be serene in sch a few weeks back, which she pinched me damn hard afterward (a term of affection, she isn't crazy btw). wah bianggg.

10. The last person that you liked?
.mmmmm.. next

12. The last person you saw?
.my brother i suppose? friends wise, then sarah loh.

13. Who was your favorite teacher in your latest
school year?
.Andrew Millians i suppose.. IBP Fuk Xing Luk can't be without him as our supervisor.

14. Who was the last person that emailed you?
.National Library Representative.

15. Who was the last person you went to the
movies with?
.i tink it was reza for "john tucker must die"

16 Who knows you more than anyone?
.my Creator, God!

17. Who is the smartest person you know
personally?
.smartest = dunno
. filled with wisdom = ps kong!

18. Who is the loudest person you know
personally?
.loudest- clarice zang, but she's toned down a lot. so i'll have to say myself :D

20. Who is the weirdest person you know?
.mmmmm too sensitive. next.

21. Who did you like in 1st grade?
.i loved.. my primary school's canteen. seriously, what else got me so fat?

22. Who did you like in 4th grade?
.assuming it's p4, i'd say, wendy cai yi mei.

23. Who did you like in 6th grade?
.assuming it's sec 1, i'd say, Reine Jong from Monks Hill. goodness i wonder where she is now.

24. Who was the last person that made you sad?
. sensitive, but it wasn't someone close to me, so i wasn't really that affected.

25. Who was the last person that you went on
vacation with?
.the matriach and brother i think.. to Adelaide earlier this year?

26.Who is the last person(s) you thought about?
.my cellgroup during prayer conference.

27. Who was the last person that made you laugh
hard?
.jonathan lee e374 :D he does better imitations than anyone else i know.

28. Who was the last person you skipped class
with?
.i think it was docpro last semester, i did it incognito.

29. Who was the last person you sang to?
.God!

30. Who was the last person that sang FOR you?
.wah. so long ago. i tink it was some dude a year ago, wanted to impress me with a song. HAHAHAHAHAHHAA. looking back, it felt quite gross and weird and stupid! haha.

31. Who do you want to date right now?
.she..

32. Who do you NOT want to date right now?
.he...

Viewing.. by ? perceptions.

2006-10-26T00:50:00.000+08:00

how do you want people to view you as?

a person who is so charismatic that the commoner would flock to you as you ramble about the most mundane topic such as watching paint dry?

a person who is as dull as a dishwasher that would send people running when you start talking about the way you woke up on the wrong side of the bed?

a person who has principles and would not cave into his moral values even if a person pointed a gun to his head?

a person who is gutless and "WHATEVER" who would just follow what the crowd does ala herd mentality?

now i'm not saying that a place of agreement is NOT a place of power.

truly a place of agreement IS a place of power!

just that, when we compromise to follow what others do, is THINKING about changing and having an INWARD DECISION to shift your mindset to align yourself with the other party.

herd mentality means NOT THINKING and BLINDLY FOLLOWING without an INWARD DECISION to adhere. thus thats why many people drift from decision to decision.

maybe i'm just rambling, but this has been floating in my head for the whole day

*

the new addition to the itczy's-glam-wardrobe. the husky bag from NUMNUM <3

*

somehow, i'm tired, but i'm comforted.

Hari Raya BORING LAR.

2006-10-24T17:05:00.000+08:00

so yes, it's a public holiday today, aside from watching "Guess Who" starring Ashton Kutcher & Bernie Mac, been collaborating the mugshots of the mass audition for our IBP a few days ago...

feeling rather restless, and i've sorta had it up to here with my silly wireless, that @#&@! keeps on disconnecting by itself, and apparently LINKSYS is not a very good help, even though they solved my problem, right after i hung up on the toll-free hotline, the bugger still disconnects. NGEH.

anyhooos, was accompanying Andrew to work yesterday, while he took photos of people attending the event, i was by myself, having a drink looking around, yes, same old same old.. seems like i'll never grow tired of that place, though it's rather boring after awhile, rumours are that they may be closing down even. but hush hush. it's just grapevine rumours i suppose.

and was supposed to meet Yongmin! but i guess he left with his friends for supper and apparently he go to know someone yesterday and someone asked about me. ahhh.

eitherways, i'm pretty much rambling, and yes, cg outing was cancelled today ): boohoo. sigh.

i wanna do more memes, it's really boring. >_<

a different memes from usual memes

2006-10-23T12:18:00.000+08:00

1. My ex is still...
around in the clubbing scene.. somewhere. Him and i hardly keep in contact, wait no, check that. never. bah, whatever. ain't no interest.

2. I am listening to...
the hum-drum monotony of my mum's swivel fan.

3. Maybe I should...
learn Adobe Illustrator soon and head to the gym later after IBP meeting

4. I love...
improving my body image and style as well as hanging out with people who can make me happier and happier and happier and happier.

5. My best friend...
is starts with J. and He's living in me and He's greater than He that's in the world.

6. I don't understand...
why must people feel sleepy after a heavy meal (stupid breakfast -_-)

7. I lost...
many friends recently. not to forget many appointments i've made on impulse when meeting a long lost friend on the street ("lunch soon yea??!")

8. People say...
"timothy is such a hypocrite"
"timothy is insanely funny and friendly"
"timothy who?"

9. The meaning of my screen name is...
itczy is (h) (MSN for the yellow smiley with sunglasses). Isaac Timothy Chan is yellow/cool/smiling/smokin'/hot/GLAM. self-explanatory.

10. Love is...
1 Cor 13.. patient. kind...

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love feels like:
cliche answer : wanting to be with the person every single day and moment

11. Somewhere, someone is...
going through what i'm going through, in variable scenarios but with similar problems.

12. I will always...
be a cam whore and a fashionista.

13. Forever seems...
to be such an easy word to say but such a hard commitment to keep.

14. I never ever want to...
be at a place where i'm helpless and disabled and ppl have to help me. that really sucks.

15. My cell phone is...
something which i can't live without, but something which i wish would charge less at times. (i can only get such a fixed amount of free SMSes -_-)

16. When I woke up this morning...
it felt like 3pm when it was only 9am. and my throat was a thick pole filled to the brim of phelgm.

17. I get annoyed...
when people start taking things & people for granted.

18. Parties are...
occasional fun! a pool party with a bright sun followed by a great tan is always welcomed in my books.

19. My pet(s) are...
i don't own pets, but would love a dog though.

20. Kisses are the best when...
peppered with love and affection.

21. Today I...
am finally going gymming after a week and a half hiatus

22. Tomorrow I will...
probably be going ice skating with the cellgroup.

23. I really want...
to go up a higher and deeper level with God as well as stretching my capacity for Love.

7 random things about myself:
1. i used to be fat. as in Free Willy fat.
2. I used to gloss my finger + toe nails. they look pretty when shiny wadddddd.
3. past verbal diarrhoea words were "ngeh", "sianzville", "wah lau", "$*@!" and "nehnehpok"
4. i want to be a model (okay guys, laugh it out).
5. I wished i went to Sunset Bay more before it closed. BEACH VBALL!!
6. I want to get into NTU Arts Design & Media
7. I can burp at will. as in really scary big burps

7 things that scare me:
1. Creepy Crawlies.
2. People who are too friendly and who smile over-excessively, that's kinda creepy and fake. BALANCE PEOPLE BALANCE.
3. Sharp Objects.
4. Diseases & Death (that's quite duh)
5. Dreams that seem so real.
6. Blood (esp from the Movie: Exorcist The beginnning)
7. People shouting in an offensive tone in a language i don't know.

7 random songs at the moment:
1. Paul Oakenfold - Starry Eyed Surprise
2. Crystal Waters - 100% Love
3. Crystal Waters - Gypsy Woman (she's homeless)
4. Crystal Waters - The Boy from Ipanema
5. Hillsong - The Time has Come
6. Fergie - London Bridge
7. Ciara - Get up

7 things I like most:
1. Shopping
2. Gymming
3. Rollerblading
4. Beach Volleyball & tanning
5. People watching at a cafe with friends.
6. hanging with e374 & joking with jon lee. wadda joker.
7. spending time with God.

someone.

2006-10-20T23:00:00.000+08:00

somehow, i can't believe you chose not to realise that people love you.

bah, it kinda hurts, but i have to move on, lest issues like this hinder me.

*

on a brighter brighter note, work at instantkarma is getting more enjoyable. got to know the fellow instantkarmics as well as the TOSS and neighbouring shopkeepers.

and i'm running a bad cold. my nose is drippy all over.

special thanks to korkor george for dropping by with panadol cold and a ham sandwich! (:

*

yeah, managed to ketchup with debbie ytd with leeling and mcm-er sam. we ate subway and managed to fellowship. thanks debs, we're here for each other yeah! what's happened is happened. true love gives the freedom of choice.

service tml, but before that, day 2 of the singing auditions. long day, followed by korkor alvin's bbq all the way at friggin BT BATOK. ohmyword....

a few words to someone

2006-10-20T22:43:00.001+08:00

a few words to someone

2006-10-20T22:43:00.000+08:00

SHOPPING LIST UPDATED AGAIN! :D

2006-10-18T22:14:00.000+08:00

Shopping List WEF 18th October 2208hrs

1 X Ed Hardy Rhineston-studded top
1 X pair of jeans (good fit)
1 X Berms (abercrombie'n'Fitch or BUM)
1 X Belt (no big buckle / no buckle prease) [Added 18/10/06]

completed
3 X Ed Hardy Tops
1 X jeans (topman)
1 X Bag (newurbanmale)
1 X NewUrbanMale vintage tee
1 X Berms (GANT)

even before building fund, i have completed 7 out of my 11 items on my shopping list and i'm still not in lack! hallelujah! :D

*PS: this isn't mummy-swipes-credit-card purchases. it's by my own sweat and earned cash, which makes it SO much more fulfilling :D feels good to own something that is literally your own. hurhur.

( rhinestone top is reserved for the trio pact *nudges al & ky* )

and apparently the stewpig blogger picture posting thing is @#(!* down.. oh well.. if not would have shown you my NUM bag! *gleams big big*

and i wanna go gym -whines like a bonafide macho mary- HAHAHAHA. no i don't sound like that.

~~i sound worse. LOL~~

and i needa go suntan, else i'd look like a real weirdo in the lighter ed hardy tops...

ok, spirit of vanity, OUT!

memes.

2006-10-18T13:06:00.000+08:00

1.Best place to cry?
:: church, room with lights out. eyes closed. talking to Daddy God.

2. Missing someone right now?
:: nope!

3. The person/people you love the most?
:: Mum...

4.Tell us your dream last night...
:: One of my church friends was leading praise while doing a para para dance. weird.

5. Ever hate someone so bad?
:: used to.

6. The biggest lie you heard?
:: is that the church uses our money to provide for sun's SKIN boutique. ridiculous. she uses her royalties from her album sales, not the church's fund.

7. Ever lied to someone you love the most?
:: white lies.. but a lie is still a lie.

8. What's the worst thing you've ever done?
:: i suppose screaming at my leader. :/

9. Wanna be someone else than ur self?
:: spiritual satisfaction comes about when you gain self-acceptance of who you are in Christ.

10. Ever slap someone?
:: oops. yes.

11. Last time u cried?
:: last sunday during Prayer meeting!

12. Biggest crush?
:: mmmmmm.. next.

13. Last mall u went to?
:: wisma to pick up my altered jeans!

14. Last memorable song you heard?
:: "I want to sing, until i am lost in Your love..."

15. Last person that hates you?
:: mmmmmm... i know a few in school.

16. Reasons why they hate you?
:: misunderstandings as well as my inability to phrase things right >_<>you (AND NOT JOLIN T-SAI omg)

29. Honestly, are you a good friend?
:: i think so. :)

30. Honestly, do you really think going to
school is important?
:: yes, fail to plan, plan to fail. nothing great is achieved without discipline.

31. Honestly, what are your dreams about,
mostly?
:: about being successful, content and healthy.

32. Honestly, who/what makes you happy most
of the time?
:: mmmm.. church, cell, gymming, suntanning, any physical self-improvement things like the forementioned.

33. Honestly, what are you so sad about right
now?
:: not sad, more bored. lol.

34. Honestly, how old are you now?
:: 19

35. Honestly, what song are you listening to
right now?
:: FRIENDS on VCD. The One with the wedding.

36. Honestly, who do you want to meet at this
very moment?
:: the freeweights in the gym.

37. Honestly, where do you like to be kissed?
:: weird, but cheeks! (face not butt thanks)

38.Honestly, do you have a deadly disease?
:: -_- NO.

39.Honestly, do you hate someone right now?
:: none. zen. ohmmmmmmm.

40.Honestly, who/what do you wanna hug
right now?
:: mum, i want her to come back sooon!

first day at work + ed hardy!

2006-10-18T09:33:00.000+08:00

so here's my first day at work. come visit me :D

some silly toy that's called Mongers.. "who needs friends when you have"

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and below is a first edition ed hardy.. prolly coz i haven't seen this before.. and no, it's not fake -_- bro bought it all from a reputable boutique in washington dc.

happy. sha la la.. :D

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Instant Karma!

2006-10-16T23:59:00.000+08:00

i'm starting work at Instant Karma tomorrow.

and today's orientation was truly a crash course on the local company/label..

as colin (the owner) says "we throw our staff straight into the deep end"

wah lau.
lol.

so i guess my building fund's gonna be taken from here. praise the Lord for a wonderful job and a good atmosphere. :)

wahhehehehe..

2006-10-16T05:37:00.000+08:00

today is the day... for Ed Hardy. (:

Shopping list updated!

2006-10-15T12:07:00.000+08:00

Shopping List WEF 15th October 1203hrs

2 X Ed Hardy Tops
2 X jeans (shredded / embroided / patched)
***MODIFIED***
1X jeans (good fit)
1 X bag
~~1 X NewUrbanMale Vintage Tees~~ COMPLETED.
~~1 X Fourskin T-Shirt ( contemplating ...)~~ DECLINED.
2 X Berms (abercrombie'n'Fitch or BUM)
***MODIFIED***
1 X Berms (abercrombie'n'Fitch or BUM)

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ahh yes, soon, the Ed Hardy Tops quantity will change. lala.

thesaurus with the haze.

2006-10-15T11:59:00.000+08:00

i have an incredibly glam amount of phelgm (or as i'd like to say, phell-gem) in my throat, thanks to the blardy haze.

i abhor the haze.
i despise the haze.
i hate the haze.
i am disgusted by the haze.
i dislike the haze.
i am repulsed by the haze.
i am turned off by the haze.

how's that for a thesaurus? ha.

*

on a brighter note, bro's coming back tml, with one big glam stock of my favourite brand. hurhurhur. no prizes for guessing wut it is.

and if you don't know, you have an appointment with the wall, thanksverymuch. heehee.

Friends Collage 2

2006-10-12T02:31:00.000+08:00

(resume Photo Collage from previous entry. dumb blogger.com -_-)

*****

so a night in marina sq + esplanade's V Tea Room with my dear ol pal Yongmin proves to be rather fruitful, albeit the sudden information of "Jack's Place" kinda got us fazed for a while. inside joke.

it's funny how what turned out bad, God will reverse and make it good. very true, indeed an awesome God.

oh yes, and being the lovable bro i am, i wrote this on a napkin and took a picture of it while he was in the loo. yes i know, queue up and go out with me, you'll get warm fuzzy feelings of surprises just like he did. :D

Friends Collage 1

2006-10-12T01:57:00.000+08:00

in my mind.
memories.
the quaint disfiguration of time and space.
equillibrium, the paradox that needs no explanation.
from the medieval to the victorian,
mankind has always battled with the test of time.

so salutations my dear friends,
you guys have (and hopefully continue) to be a joy in my mundane life,
the golden leaves in the autumn fall,
the tiny snowflake that lands on my nose in winter,
my banana boat dark sun tan lotion in summer.

and my ever shining inspiration to remain a positive person.
a man who knows his principles, convictions with a clear conscience.

so sing,
sing a song of love and memories.
two distinct but twined fates of life.

i love you guys alot and you're always in my prayers.

short.!

2006-10-09T22:25:00.000+08:00

so e374's steamboat ytd was damn homely.. really happy we had a sorta reunion (sans kaiyim, mes, jenn).. felt very happy coz mum and bro's in USA for already 7 days.. 14 more to go :/ sigh.

and, we played the zhong ji mi ma (number range game) and the guy who strikes eats something from the overcooked steamboat pot..

and ALTHEA got the TOMATO la (thanks for reminding me abt that)

haha.

format pitch is tml. and i'm not stressing out. call me crazy.

Poems Poems..

2006-10-09T05:04:00.000+08:00

the captivating glow she radiates,
my heart pulpates in ritardando.
the beauty of her skin,
polar ash, snow white.

eyes, such beautiful eyes,
shimmering with unattainable diamonds.
material things her pupils are not,
for death feigns those who condescend them.

the sweeping fringe, the melodious grandeur of her follicle patterns.
temporal colours, but an everlasting glamour beyond the gradient

fashion, popular culture but shone with great elegance and demure.
womanhood, attained.

charisma like a queen,
humility like a servant.
Esther the second one might say,
but she's unique in every way.

[pardon the last stanza, had to resort to child poems]

*

my heart's all a fluttter, but i'm controlling myself. afterall, isn't life just a test of balance from God?

you can't have too much of anything. good or bad, for afterall, aren't we less than perfect?

*

oh yes, by now, some of you would know that i'm quite a love dove, but again, these are just emancipations from my heart that is brimming full of .. admiration.

pardon the over-exuberant grossness of LOVE factor, but hey, can't help it if i've got such a big input of love that i've gotta give it away. :D

subtext, symbolism, metaphors. and a real emo post.

2006-10-05T03:39:00.000+08:00

the blue velvet, the meringue myriad of dazzled colours.
how the sea of orange clashes among the eclectic beat of citrus variation.

the toy soldier, sturdy and tall,
slowly marching like clockwork, obedient to his owner.
left right left right,
every day, every night.

nearby, the angelic doll,
full of shekinah shining on her.
small beady eyes, a blonde and intricate fringe,
duly placed with much meticulious articulation.

the soldier moves slowly, surely in clockwork timing towards the shelf of the doll.
the angel turns her head away, knowing very well her feelings towards the toy soldier, yet her head has been turned away by her own owner.

tears fall down the soldier's cheek. His heart yearns for a woman whom he can call his own, respect, admiration, submission.

and the angel wants love.

the soldier, suddenly, breaking out of routine, puts down his gun.
He slowly releases the iron cast position of his left hand.

He speaks slowly (albeit his first time) : " i love you with an everlasting love, never have i felt such a wonderous feeling when i'm with you. your eyes have dazzled like the stars in the milky sky. crimson lips with a flawless complexion weaves a spell around my mind, neverending images of happiness as a union between two souls.. "

The Doll, with much grimace and emotion, however, feigns acknowledgement, her face still turns away.

The soldier then lets out a sigh, weeps and grieves over the death of this love and friendship and walks back into the darkness.

where there is weeping and gnashing of teeth, where the future is faced with apprehension rather than anticipation.

the toy soldier's gun gets chewed up by the darkness around him the toy soldier's lips turned a gothic black from a crimson red.

the doll just looks on, anticipating someone else who would declare such love towards her.

*

how much my emotions overwhelm me,
a junction of decisions,
the awkward tension of being in mock belief.

surely judgement faces me,
yet the carnality and the frailty of life and youth embraces the young and young at heart.

the feeling of rejection and silence surely dissapates,
much to the voice of authority,
yet we silently obey,
perhaps for the better good.

*

bah, i'm being too emotional and poetic at 0343am.

forgive me, but this is as poetic as i can get.

QUESTION?

2006-10-03T02:17:00.000+08:00

*PS: no pictures coz blogger is getting @!*&#-ed up as usual -_-. maybe lateR?

These are the stuff I'm gonna do:

1. I'll respond with something random about you
2. I'll challenge you to try something
3. I'll pick a colour that I associate with you
4. I'll tell you something I like about you
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me
7. I'll ask you something I've always wanted to ask you

JANICE

“Internental-Continental Hotel”
say “she sells sea shells on the sea shore” 10 times non-stop
Black. Emo Nemo with love and hugs of course :)
Very focused and detailed in your work
Ah Lian.. coz of your hair in year 1. aiya dun talk about it, love you long long now! :p
Puma. Ferocious but gorgeous!
How does your ex look like??????

KAIYIM

You have reaaaaaly huge eyes!
Retail therapy abstinence for a whole month! *evil sniggers*
I think yellow, coz you’re one big ball of retail energy (nothing wrong with that!)
You love shopping. ‘nuff said!
You were this friend that ivy said was once in her cellgroup and you were super quiet and shy. Boy was I wrong. Heehee. :p
Porcupine. May look so “siong” but in the end very adorable!
How do you get the willpower to save up for branded stuff!?

DEBBIE

You’re very jappish!
say Wahlau in the most male tone
Red! Your love tank is forever full one until you have to pour out your love to others!
Your ability to be so patient and loving towards others.
Quiet little girl in MCM when I approached you, and then you started getting real scared when I started reciting all the background information on you.
Dodo bird. Heehee.
What do you reeeeeally think of me? *insert bambi eyes*

PAMELA

When you smile, you remind me of the sun, very bright, very sunny and very shiny! :)
do kaiyim’s birthday dance all alone. Whee!
Blue. Always playing it cool without looking dao!
You can talk to anyone anywhere anytime (even on Monday morning at 130am before you left for Vietnam!)
Dao looking sister of Pearly’s.
Penguin. Maybe its coz your name start with P too. Haha. Aside from that, very docile but not scared, meek but not low self-esteem!
Play badminton with me using your other hand (the one which u don’t really use)

WINNIE

HONEY STARS PIE!
Be super D for one whole cellgroup meeting. :P
Orange. I think coz Winnie the Pooh. Heehee.
Very patient and always very hospitable to the newcomers
Very shy quiet girl who has a long fringe that covers her eyes.
Dove. A symbol of peace and gentleness!
Didn’t your fringe make your eyes itch last time?

CHERYL

Your maggi mee hairstyle was very unique!
try to eat a whole bowl of yummy green vegetables!
the RAINBOW. You’re one creative girl!
Your creative abundance.
Quiet, short girl whom is known for her anointed creativity.
Peacock. Colourful and fashionable!
Where do you get your fashion sense from?

faith's leaving Award ):

2006-10-02T23:34:00.000+08:00

feeling a bit upset, one of my music students is gonna stop having lessons soon.. the mum says that she doesn't have time to practise.

i feel very majorly bummed out, faith is such a cute girl, though she maybe a bit over the top at times, but her very adorable antics always make me smile and make my saturday feel so good..

sigh, the saying is always so true, you won't know how much you cherish someone until he/she gets taken away from you.

well, goodbye Faith Ng, i loved the moments we had, where you would pretend the eat the book, or sleep on the piano, or try to steal all my colourful gelstick pens. sigh.

must take picture with you next week!!! :D

well, i guess we move on.

*

seeing cheryl's blog got me inspired to start a diary on my spiritual walk too, won't be posting up pictures though, see how lar. haha. either way, she's doing a great job on her challenge! :)

*

met up with nephew alvin today, aside from having a drink at Tantric and dinner at raffles hotel, it was pretty much routine like of cliche conversations.. but it was great catching up.

it's rather odd to have a nephew who's like 15 years older than you and working in a bank earning big bucks. ahh, the complexity of the cantonese family tree.

*

building fund's coming up. time to start praying, let's not grow weary..

meme on my 10 favourite things.

2006-09-29T23:33:00.000+08:00

10 of my favourite things

1. MY ED HARDY TOP!
2. Brown faded corduroy pants from Topman (friggin steal at $20!)
3. Red Adidas Watch
4. my cherry belt from e374
5. black nike shoulderbag
6. DKNY Be Delicious Perfume
7. my Laptop!
8. the feeling of carpe diem and enjoying the moment
9. my bed ( i am human after all )
10. Sermon book + bible. what a treasure of information!

10 of my favourite places

1. Expo Hall 8 aka "WORSHIP VENUE (as stated in website)" aka CHURCH
2. Jurong West St 91 aka CHURCH
3. Marina Square!
4. Ed Hardy outlets (i know i'm crazy, shutup)
5. Marina Square!
6. Gym
7. Krabi Beach
9. Anywhere that suntanning is available (without lewd perverts)
10. wherever my loved ones are. (that includes you MUMMY :D i know you read my blog!)

10 places i wanna go before turning 30

1. Krabi, Thailand
2. L.A, America
3. Israel!
4. Gold Coast, Australia
5. Taiwan
6. Desaru, Malaysia
7. -
8. -
9. -
10. -

p.s i don't really like travelling abroad. ): feel too attached to Singapore.

10 of my favourite foods/Drinks

1. ~~ED HARDY!~~ kidding. BEN & JERRY'S CHERRY GARCIA!
2. White Chocolate
3. Honeydew fruit
4. KFC chicken (both original and crispy)
5. Cherries (both fruit, pitted and sweetened)
6. Noodles [mee tai muk is my current addiktion]
7. Non-dairy ice cream [i.e Lemon/Lime sherbets!]
8. Yakult
9. Watermelon fruit
10. SUSHI! :D

10 things on my want list

1. Ed Hardy Chinese Demon S/S Tee shirt (import from US)
2. 2 more Ed Hardy Tops for X'mas [nudges ky + al AGAIN]
3. totally glam jeans from anywhere
4. Newurbanmale Vintage Tee
5. Newurbanmale bag (slingbag)
6. Havianas from Newurbanmale
7. a nice formal tee
8. a photoshoot for modelling portfolio / comm card.
9. wonderfully nourished hair
10. MORE TIME FOR LOVED ONES ):

10 things that turns me off

1. Mosquito bites
2. HOT WEATHER
3. CROWDS.
4. Wedgies (i'm not kidding)
5. FASHION-impaired people ( and i mean super impaired )
6. hair grease on bus windows
7. armpit sweat stains
8. discreet show-offs ( i can tell )
9. drunkards (hold your liquor darling!)
10. and the most cliche answers : backstabbers, hypocrites, liars etc..

10 things i enjoy doing

1. Suntanning
2. Gymming
3. SHOPPINGGGGGGG
4. walking around town wearing my pre-arranged outfit [i swear]
5. people-watching
6. Movie-watching [yes, isaac timothy has finally evolved into a movie-goer *GASP]
7. Dancing like a silly goof behind bedroom doors in front of my mirror (WHO DOESN'T DO THAT?! :D]
8. bathing [ high maintainence dude here ]
9. friendster.com-ing
10. conversations with the Almighty.

by the end of .... (meme)

2006-09-28T14:11:00.000+08:00

was reading al's blog so i decided to do this up too.

by the end of 2006:
-finish up Foundation Truths bible study 1
-be active in Drama Ministry
-be a responsible producer for specs
-1 more soul before x'mas!
-1 more ed hardy top (nudges ky & al, remember THE PACT!)

by the mid of 2007:
-hopefully in NS by then (but EMERGE conference first plz!)
-1 more soul before enlistment!
-get a 6 pack
-get a freelance portfolio for modelling (hopefully i'll look good bald)
-be in discipleship if it's His will and My obedience.

by the end of 2007:
-NS ):
-2 souls!
-learn how to drive!
-at least one more ed hardy top
-finish Authority for Victory bible studies

by the end of 2008:
-NS ):
-have a tanned awesome body
-at least one more ed hardy top (hopefully by then they still have good designs)
-finish ALL bible studiess :D

by the mid of 2009:
-ORD BY THEN (PLEASE GOD PLEASE!)
-get into NTU ADM hopefully, else a degree based in Sg.
- in leadership?

by the end of 2009:
- studying in a local Uni
- Ed Hardy Wardrobe!
- Resume work at Perennial Productions? [if we ever register the company]
- maintain the 6 pack and do freelance modelling
- ~~get married~~ find someone [earlier then praise the Lord loh]

lotsa hidden wishes and desires implanted within, if ya can find it then good for you! :)

but overall, i think i have to really be disciplined in what i do in order to get what i have that God has provided. really true eh.

the sun's out and i SO WANNA TAN ): butttt, @#!# IBP briefing later >_<>

neways, i'm just rattling already, so off i go!

perennial productions!

2006-09-28T01:07:00.000+08:00

man, whoever thought sitting down would be so tough.

not with the cloud of worry on your head.

yes, sponsors and sponsors.

who's willing to sponsor cute lil' ol' me and my group?

PERENNIAL PRODUCTIONS

( L-R )

Leslie,
Director of Photography,
born to clap hands and shake ass.
awesome cinematography.
quote? "wakakakakaka..."

Zul,
Sound Designer
currently fasting.
effecient in sound composition / sound sourcing / location sound
quote? " wad alllll..."

Alan
Director
Leader of the group
ex-beng, into old skool songs
quote "be cool! / (or any impersonations of the group, esp janice/rachel)

Isaac
Producer
GLAM FASHIONISTA
muddle headed but positively cheerful
quote "*insert weird laughter*"

Rachel
Art Director
Moonlights as a nauti_ger_rabbit
voted most favourite MSN address by the group
quote "huh?"

Janice
Editor
Hardworking girl
most likely to bring a digital cam as her luxury item on Survivor
quote "Poly student, not student meh?" (inside joke)

*

aiya, with us, how not to do well? :P

ENDING for FUKXINGLUK DONE! :)

2006-09-27T02:09:00.000+08:00

Bt Chandu was a major BOREFEST for our location recce. i mean, 2 bucks just to see a museum smaller than my house and then walk all the way down kent ridge park?

screams RIPOFF! but i DID make my 2 bucks worth by making a hollywood worthy signature on the guestbook. hohoho.

we've FINALLY have an ending to the script *PRANCES AROUND*

after many gruelling hours at TCC raffles place, Macdonalds Raffles place, Burger King City Hall, TCC City Hall... yes hallelujah! :D

went to Gary's place to look after him before Jimmy arrived. poor boy still feverish. get well soon :)

and cabbed home.

zesty sour proverb

2006-09-26T09:54:00.001+08:00

When life gives you lemons, ~~make lemonade~~ ask God for something sweeter.

ramblings. literally on the seasons of life.

2006-09-26T09:54:00.000+08:00

i think the mundanity of life always seems to sap my zest and zeal for anything i cherish and have passion for.

there will always be seasons of dryness or enthusiasm.

EMOTION is such a strong 7 letter word. it's because of emotion that we say things we shouldn't / should have said. it blocks our conscience.

dad once told mum, don't expect anything in return lest you get disappointed.

i guess that's unconditional love.

everytime i go through a tunnel, there is only that beacon of light at the end that serves as a guide, a (literally) ray of hope.

the vicious cycle has never a break stop, only a chance to move at a slower pace.

A cow maybe just a cow, but it's spots and features are beyond our control.

pardon the really ~~awful~~ bizarre proverbs, just woke up and rather cranky that i'm unable to adjust the dimensions of the youtube in the previous post, causing it to block half of my side bar, hence this "space filler". hurhur.

Kai Yim's birthday song video on Youtube.

2006-09-26T00:48:00.000+08:00

happy belated birthday video kaiyim :)

*

watched Little Man today, and it was NOT funny. No seriously, some scenes were just so.. redundant and tried too hard to be funny.

oh, and Gary brought me to this cafe called Hemisphere near OG centre point. Level 3. very cozy, shall bring e374 there to chill out one day! :)

*

i guess pretty settled down in home tutorials (i.e calling up sponsors and getting avoided by them -_- *whispers* jerks)

oh oh location recce tomorrow!

meme from kaiyim

2006-09-25T05:19:00.000+08:00

1. When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought?
- my waistline!

2. Say something random.
- i want to wear different Ed Hardy T-shirts everyday. HOHO.

3. What's a word that rhymes with "DOOR"?
- SHORE

4. Favorite planet?
- Earth > we're living on it right?

5. Who is the 4th person on your missed call list
on your mobile?
- Reza from Mass Comm!

6. What is your favorite ringtone on your phone?
- Messenging = MSN messenging tone
- call = Tokyo Drift - Teriyaki Boys. (wa-ta-shiwa tokyo suki!)

7. What kinda shirt you have on?
- now about to sleep, oversized P.E tee from gan eng seng.

8. Describe yourself in one phrase?
- the whole package without postage

9. Name the brand of shoes you're currently wearing?
- SPRINGFIELD SNEAKERS, PUMA Shoes.

10. Bright or Dark Room?
- Bright. best if it's air-conditioned too.

11. What do you think about the person who took this survey before you?
- [fellow] SHOPPAHOLIC

12. If you're alone in a room with two beds, which one do you sleep on?
- both. stretch out horizontally by joining the 2 beds together. ahh, that's using your noggin! :)

13. What were you doing at midnight last night?
- just got home from fellowship, probably posting up the ed hardy photos below.

14. What did your last text message say that you received on your mobile?
- ehhh.. private lar. :p

15. Where is your letter box?
- next to my gate? -duh-

16. What's a word that you say a lot?
- *rolls eyes* ooookay then.

17. Who told you he/she loved you last?
- ivy!

18. Last furry thing you touched?
- bath towel.. they ARE furry right?

19. How many drugs have you done in the last
three days?
- shopping. sigh.

20. How many rolls of film do you need to get
developed?
- none. we're in the digicam world and projects haven't started coming in yet.

21. Favorite age you have been so far?
- 8 years old would be nice. primary school, the only thing you have to worry about is politics regarding friends [ "don't friend you liao"]

22. Your worst enemy?
- Oversensitivity. stupid over C-ness.

23. What is your current desktop picture?
- just blue. i really should put a photo up.

24. What was the last thing you said to someone?
- Goodnight princess. haha. long story but i said it to Andrew.

25. If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to fly?
- fly, coz it can be a career and make a million bucks.

26. Do you like someone?
- i love MANY people esp CHC e374, God, as well as my friends whom i spend quality time with

27. The last song you listened to?
- Fergie - London Bridges (nudge mes)

28. If the last person you spoke to was getting shot at, would you jump in front of the bullet?
- i'd take out my poison darts and throw it at the culprit first. i should be fast enough as i'm the whole package without postage.

29. If you could punch one person in the face who would it be?
- none. i'm at peace :)

30. What is the closest object to your left foot?
- the table leg i suppose. else i'd be doing this with bad leg cramps.

31. What do u want now?
- Ed hardy tops
- a position in NTU Comms or Art, Design & Media

32. Current worry?
- oversensitivity.

33. Next holiday?
- 13th Feb 2007 (final year started liao :/)

Ed Hardy Fashion show. hurhur.

2006-09-24T00:29:00.000+08:00

i have a fetish for vintage tees these few months, so been going on a retail high with newurbanmale + queen's coutre. gah, this is seriously a shopaholic, my instant karma tees are being so neglected. gosh. okay. less quantity, more quality. less street clothes, more newurbanmale + Ed Hardy! WHOO.

so apparently i got on an Ed Hardy high in the CK tang changing room, drastically trying to exchange my baggy Ed Hardy[see below] (which the shopkeepr told me would expand further after frequent wash, thus the tight fits)

yes, looked so cool right. sigh. if only there was a size smaller.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHAUN CHRISTOPHER TEO KOK YUAN :) 20th birthday, the big two zero. mmmm. well, i love the barney wrapper josh got. it really suits you, big, huggable, friendly and most of all, a great friend and brother's keeper!

oh yes, say hello to my new sidekick, Ed Dilana. it's a very nice present from KAI YIM! :D thank you so much, it's a really pleasant suprise and i am sincerely touched (:

it's awesome isnt' it? it's so soft. and i named it Ed Dilana, coz Ed Hardy + Dilana (rockstar supernova) = Timothy's current interests!

kaiyim, Ed Dilaaaaaaanaaaaa.. Ed Dilannnnnna... wheeheehee.

oh yes, and me and kaiyim got winnie a gorgeous neklace which i forgot to take a picture of! >_<>

oh yes, bloggers getting a bit @!($*-ed up now so gotta post up another entry. brb. btw, this post is purely a "fashion show" ED TIMOTHY. whee :) oh yes, and a big shout out to the staff manning the SKIN section at CK tang, Briony and Ben, thanks for all the opinions and helps for my exchange :D

SHOPPING LIST UPDATED!

2006-09-22T00:00:00.000+08:00

~~Dream~~ Shopping List

3 X Ed Hardy Tops
***MODIFIED*** 2 X Ed Hardy Tops
2 X good pair of jeans (preferbly shredded or embroided/patched)
1 X new sports bag (my black nike is getting worned out)
2 X NewUrbanMale Vintage Tees
***MODIFIED*** 1 X NewUrbanMale Vintage Tees
1 X pair of Havanias Slippers (with heel strap)
***ACHIEVED!*** 1 X Slippers (Flash 'n' Splash rainbow slippers)
1 X fourskin T-shirt (hanging outside heeren's branch, lovely!)
2 X berms

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current shopping list

2X Ed Hardy Tops
2 X jeans (shredded / embroided / patched)
1 X bag
1 X NewUrbanMale Vintage Tees
1 X Fourskin T-Shirt ( contemplating ...)
2 X Berms (abercrombie'n'Fitch or BUM)

****

so how does my Ed Hardy Top, Slippers and Vintage tee look like? stay tuned (stupid blogger picture post doesn't work now -_-)

Grandpa's funeral (photos only)

2006-09-20T22:40:00.000+08:00

apparently my cousin Denise was rather high on our usual sunday night lunch and she started acting all ~~retarded~~ cute with my cap. here is her " :o " face.

and her " :D " face.

her best I.R BABOON impression

and my I.M weasel look. :)

my brother's metrosexuality comes out of the closet (it's his female friend's la. he's not gay -_-)

the bus that didn't seem depressing at all even though it was our transport from singapore casket > mandai and back again -_- how apt.

cousin monkey's (michelle)'s pose. notice the chin angle and all that jazz.

COUSIN LOVE <3 :)

COUSIN LOVE! <333333 (denise, me and nicole)

Grandpa's wake.

2006-09-18T23:32:00.000+08:00

Grandpa's wake was .... different from my dad's. there was a rather peaceful and tranquil atmosphere rather than a mourning and grieving mood.

thanks althea, winnie and cheryl for coming down to accompany me. you girls are awesome! :)

the process of death sure is long.. and life is so short. why don't we all cherish it and live life to the fullest?

Glimpse of the future

2006-09-17T23:44:00.000+08:00

over dinner today, we were talking about Singapore Idol and one of my uncles commented on this which got all the younger generation sniggering:

"i do not like Paul Toenail"

*

i had a dream this afternoon during my nap. i was with ivy and another leader, whom i was very close to last time.. and we fellowshipped over a red coach. and we smiled at each other, and laughed and laughed.. talking, sharing feelings. level 4 of the communications level (refer to last week's sermon)

when i woke up, it felt like it was a glimpse of the future.

yesterday Ps Kong talked about writing a love letter to anyone whom has harmed / offended you before.

and i think i WILL write one ..

*

while on the way home from work this morning, was reading "Happiness is ..." by Dr A R Bernard. and one chapter really got me convinced about true happiness.

True Happiness is dependent on the synchronisation of your
thoughts/motivations and your actions in life.

how true, i guess whenever a person tries to change and let God mould in the beginning, there's always a struggle because though your actions have changed, your mindset might still be a bit laggy.

"you may have left egypt, but egypt has not left you" - a good friend once told me.

and sometimes, a person can be in church for many eons, but he/she probably won't find true happiness for his spirit and flesh are co-inciding in their actions.

thank goodness for God's grace, we are able to pick ourselves up after each battle, but we have to go from strength to strength.

Poo Phat Kung Kari , Esplanade and Kai Yim's celebration!

2006-09-17T15:09:00.000+08:00

so yesterday was a pretty eventful day.. we went to thai express @ esplanade for kai yim's birthday dinner. the Poo Phat Pung Kari (which nearly majority of the cellgroup has delightfully butcher the thai language) is as always good. curried soft shell crab rice.

then we proceeded up to the rooftop where we performed "every breath you take" by the Police for Kaiyim's birthday. (indeed it's a stalker song but we DUH obviously modified the lyrics) PLUS the awesome fantabulous beyond-words magnificent cool fun dance performed by yours truly, althea, pam and guang jie, made ivy LOL. haha. or in Mes's words. ZOMG. haha.

kaiyim : you are precious both in God's eyes and our cellgroups' eyes! all the best for monday's paper.. :)

afterward, played mafia/murderer (where we sit in a circle and a murderer secretly goes around killing people and we have to like vote ppl out ala survivor style).

apparently, i wasn't very happy on being voted out first for both rounds, and i obviously manifested on the 2nd round. i apologise! must learn to keep my temper in check.

it's a game and i really shouldn't let such small petty things get in the way of the whole cellgroup having a good time.

it's when you're faithful in the little things..

but i did like althea's narration of the killing "Clifford came and ate up Ivy" .. "___ [forgot who] died because piglet played a trick on him/her" LOL. it's disney cute man.

oh yes, and very excellent and fruitful relationship.. finally saw mes after so long! *waves* and we're slowly but surely growing.

somehow, after yesterday night, indeed there was a breakthrough last week, everyone's so much more open and cliche conversations are less between e374 and there's more sharing of feelings and thoughts.. or at least exchanging of information. heh.

s'okay. glory to glory! oh man, tomorrow's the start of year 3 sem 2 week 1. ahhh. *runs around*

Shopping List

2006-09-16T01:43:00.000+08:00

~~dream~~ Shopping List

3 X Ed Hardy Tops
2 X good pair of jeans (preferbly shredded or embroided/patched)
1 X new sports bag (my black nike is getting worned out)
2 X NewUrbanMale Vintage Tees
1 X pair of Havanias Slippers (with heel strap)
1 X fourskin T-shirt (hanging outside heeren's branch, lovely!)
2 X berms

haha. i guess that's it, total bill could be nearly $800. ohmyword. but it's okay, i'll have to cut down on my food, too many moments on my lips and ETERNITY on my hips.

and kaiyim, i hope i'm not a bad influence. HURHUR. but i got my shopping list inspiration from YOUR blog loh! wheeee :p

oh oh oh! i plan to dye my hair soon. i see Ps Zhuang's mohawk streaks i was like WHOA i wanna do that before NS! mmmmmmm. what colour.. *thinks*

tomorrow's service again.. can't wait for the next marriage lesson.. it's gonna be AWESOME.

cellgroup was very.. heartfelt today, though it was a short sermon, we got to pair up and try to understand the current level of communication with each other. I paired up with Josh and we started talking and i felt that there was a breakthrough and that aside from exchanging information, in time there will be exchanging of beliefs and thinkings. like one of my previous posts have said, i feel that this is a God-given friendship. ain't gonna let this slip away.

oh, and we surprised kaiyim at her house at Yishun after cell! she was super touched, i have some pictures, but as i'm being very nice, i decided not to post it up due to kaiyim's (presumbly she's) objection/objecting.

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY KAIYIM!!!

ED HARDY!

2006-09-15T00:28:00.000+08:00

I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE ED HARDY. :)

I've achieved my financial target (in order to buy or self-qualify my first ed hardy tee below $200) so thinking and thinking..

meanwhile. enjoy the ED HARDY SHOP online!

many things have happened over the past few days. just reformatted my cpu so be patient with my photos. hurr.

Jesus i Belong to You

2006-09-12T10:53:00.000+08:00

when i woke up. this song came into my mind..

into Your hands,
i commit again,
with all i am
to You Lord.

You hold my world,
in the palm of Your hands.
and I am Yours,
forever.....

Jesus i believe in You.
Jesus i belong to You.
You're the reason that i live,
the reason that i sing,
with all i am.

incredibly emo yes, but as i run through the song in my head, i can't stop but feel so grateful towards God for my life.

"God is exalted in his power. Who is a teacher like him?
Who has presecribed his ways for him, or said to him, 'You have done
wrong'?
Remember to extol his work, which men have praised in song.
All men gaze on it from afar.
How great is God - Beyond our understanding!
The number of his years is past finding out."-Job 36-22-26

a little meme for me-self. haha.

2006-09-12T01:32:00.000+08:00

i am rather free right now, so decide to do a little meme for myself.

3 things on your desk you can't do without
-laptop!
-lamplight
-1.5 litre bottle of water *imitates a camel*

3 things on your desk you can do without
-stupid receipts lying around
-food sealers (those kiap kiap alligator mouth like thingies for air tight containing? i eat around the desk)
-ants (refer to above)

3 things that you wish to have on your desk
-a desktop (yes colin, i agree, a laptop is not good for gaming)
-a lava lamp (they're just nice to look at)
-a mini water dispenser (they're more fetching than a VODAVODA waterbottle)

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Name 3 key friends in your life (excluding God coz He's the alpha & omega!)
1-ivy
2-joshua
3-debbie

disclaimer: many other friends are key in my life, but these 3 stand out... read below!

Share a memorable moment that happened with each of them?

1- it's pretty much the outings we've had with the cellgroup. As a leader, she is always the one who heads the group with gusto and enthusiasm. Like during rollerblading (refer to previous posts), she would always encourage the other members (including me) to always keep on trying and learning. I guess what really makes her stand out is the ability to empathise with my weaknesses and always encourages me to strive towards being a new creation for God.

2- i've gotten to know joshua better through the past few weeks, but i can feel an assurance that this is a God-given friendship. There's a sense of peace when i go out with him, even if we hardly talk. He encourages me, looks out for me like a big brother. and even during a point where i was so nervous about something, he just nods his head, gives an assuring grin and a strong voice that says "everything will be fine" and that kept me going. what can i say, really happy for a friend like him.

3- there's a transparency between the both of us, the chemistry to talk and never grow bored (or at least that's what i feel) Of course, her laughing at my awfully lame/corny jokes also helps increase my ego abit. but she's a great helper in her cellgroup and she constantly strives to show non-believers the incredible presence of God's love in her life. Even through this, i feel mightily challenged to never stop sowing into people's lives and eventually bring them to Jesus. with a fellow evangelist on fire, no one's impossible to save!

current favourite biblical verse?

"Because he loves me", says the LORD, "I will rescue him; I will protect him for he acknowledges my name. He will call upon me, and I will answer him: I will be with him in trouble. I will deliver him and honor him. With long life will I satisfy him and show him my salvation" - Ps 91:14-16

i will miss...

2006-09-07T16:04:00.000+08:00

thank you aloysius foo siang yew for this. -_-

but i love the collage though!

enjoy the bald lifestyle WEF tomorrow :)

What does your birthdate mean?

2006-09-07T11:31:00.000+08:00

Your Birthdate: August 11

Spiritual and thoughtful, you tend to take a step back from the world.
You're very sensitive to what's going on around you, yet you remain calm.
Although you are brilliant, it may take you a while to find your niche.
Your creativity is supreme, but it sometimes makes it hard for you to get things done.

Your strength: Your inner peace

Your weakness: You get stuck in the clouds

Your power color: Emerald

Your power symbol: Leaf

Your power month: November

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

got this from cheryl's blog. mmmmmm. it's half true i suppose, but cheryl's one was DEAD ON.

butt, i CAN afford to be more spiritual.

i think i've become more calm even though there are so many things swirling around my mind (still sensitive, but controlled!)

erm, brilliant wise, allow me to quote "MORE THAN CONQUERORS!" and yes, still can't find my niche... drama, singing etc?

supreme creativity i do not know, but yes, hard to get things done. DISTRACTIONS DISTRACTIONS!

mmm.. inner peace. must gain that too.... i wanna be a carrier of His presence.

stuck in the clouds.. meaning.. distracted i suppose. true true.

EMERALD! i like green! =D

leaf hrms.. k lar this entry a bit too long.. LEAF ME ALONE. HAha. geddit?! leaf leave leaf leave. (i can hear my whole cellgroup groaning and rolling their eyes *pokepoke*)

November my power month? mmm. this year yes, filming for final year project + rehearsals + building fund..

but......

"Do not be afraid of them, for I am with you and will rescue you" - Jeremiah 1:8 (NIV)

the "cyber cafe" and chilling out.

2006-09-07T00:21:00.000+08:00

instead of saying, CANNOT,

say

CAN, but NOT without GOD!

"in all these things, we ARE MORE THAN CONQUERORS through Him who LOVED US" - Rom 8:37 (NIV)

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so the day was pretty much spent having alot of alone time... began to just reflect on what i've been doing with my one-life.

yes, here i am suntanning at DELTA swimming complex... this was taken yesterday when it was very cloudy, but today was awfully sunny and TADAA!!I GOT MY AMAZING BROWN SKIN BACK *turtle dance emoticon*

headed to gym..

then dinner with mummy at crystal jade @ great world city!!! *big grin*

oh and on monday, i actually went out to see my distant uncle's new cafe down at WATERLOO BUILDING.

apparently, the food isn't that bad ( i love the japanese curry fish!), it's concept is the ordering and messenging service. See the pipes at the back? it uses suction force..

yeah, and each pipe goes into every individual table.

at the table, you have a button to press to activate the suction force, but before that, you should unscrew the orange lid .. and take out the ..

cute ornate little ball (those 50Cents or watever machine that has a little trinket inside machines) yeap, afterward, cover it back, press the button and ZOOOM goes to the counter.

from ernestwit's blog.

2006-09-06T12:37:00.000+08:00

from Ernest (thy twitZx)'s blog. mmmmmmmm.

A-Damn good kisser.
B- Good all around person.
C- You're wild & crazy.
D- You have one of the best personalities ever.
E-You have a nice ass
F- People totally adore you.
G- You never let people tell you what to do.
H- You have a very good personality and looks.
I- You get hyper easily.
J- Everyone loves you.
K- You like to try new things.
L- You live to have fun.
M- Success comes easily to you.
N- You are absolutely beautiful.
O- You're an awesome person.
P- You are popular with all types of people.
Q- You are a hypocrite.
R- Sexy!
S- Easy to fall in love with.
T- You're loyal to those you love.
U- You really like to chill.
V- You are not judgemental.
W- You are very broad minded.
X- You never let people tell you what to do.
Y- One of the best bfs/gfs anyone could ask for.
Z- You're a little too hard to find.

the old ...
I- You get hyper easily.
S- Easy to fall in love with.
A-Damn good kisser.
A-Damn good kisser.
C- You're wild & crazy.

the new creation!
T- You're loyal to those you love. (JESUS! <3)
I- You get hyper easily. ("...zeal for your house will consume me" - John 2:17)
M- Success comes easily to you. (we are to be the HEAD and not the TAIL!)
O- You're an awesome person. (we are MORE THAN CONQUERORS through Christ Jesus!)
T- You're loyal to those you love. ("my first love.. forever you will be.." - CHC - First.)
H- You have a very good personality and looks. (AMEN AMEN! heehee. The glory of God!)
Y- One of the best bfs/gfs anyone could ask for. (The only thing that remains to be seen.)

mmmm.

2006-09-06T00:22:00.000+08:00

God's sovereign Choice.

"it does not depend on man's desire or effort, but on GOD's mercy" - Romans 9:16

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really restless to blog about the day's happenings, but i wanna give a big voice of encouragement to all going through dry spells. i know how you guys feel, but fast (as much as you hate to do so!) and once you finish the period of fasting, He won't leave you where you were before.

:)

s'all about the number 3.

2006-09-04T22:35:00.000+08:00

glanced at friendster's bulletin board and saw something written by keshia, so decided to rip it and do it myself too..

Name 3 schools you went to:
- Henry Park Primary
- Gan Eng Seng School
- Ngee Ann Poly Film Sound & Video (Current)

Name 3 things in your purse/wallet:
- Receipts
- ATM Card
- Ez-Link TAPTAP.

Name 3 things you like to wear
- Fitted T shirts.
- Awesome big-buckle belts
- DKNY Be Delicious! / Nike Ice Dive Perfume (cheapo)

Name 3 things you always do when you are stressed up:
- prayyyyyyy
- sing loudly and (almost) crazily
- do weird dance moves in front of my bedroom mirror (BEHIND CLOSE DOORS)

Name 3 favourite songs right now:
- Hillsong - The time has come
- City Harvest Church - First
- Fergie - London Bridge

Name 3 favourite persons in life:
- Daddy God!
- Mumsiekins :D
- my leader ivy

Name 3 places you go on a daily basis:
- toilet
- Orchard
- the Hiding Place.

Name 3 things you like to do:
- Sing
- Shop
- Hang out with beloved ones.

Name 3 people of the opposite sex that you hold
hands before:
- Mum
- Serene (we were -then- "sisters")
- actually truth be told, held alot of my friends' hands, but nothing romantic.. OOPS.

Name 3 favourite fruits:
- Mangos
- Pomelo (i love the big juicy pulps!)
- Cherries

Name 3 things you are addicted to:
- SHOPPING
- GYMMING
- Spending Cash (sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh....)

Name 3 favourite hobbies:
- Working Out
- Suntanning
- watching FRIENDS (over and over and over and over)

Name 3 career choices:
- PR Execeutive
- Full Time Church Worker
- Owner of my own label. WE MEN DON'T HAVE ENOUGH TRENDY CLOTHES!

Name 3 goals in 2006:
- Firm up
- Be a better witness for God
- ensure IBP is a success

Name 3 plans for tomorrow:
- Suntanning with Van
- Collecting my new specs! *turtle dance MSN emoticon*
- dinner with ... Justin i think.

Name 3 things that scare you:
- Death
- Death
- Flying insects (bees, hornets)

Name 3 of your closest friends:
- Ivy
- Debbie
- Bronty

Name 3 things you are wearing now:
- My red-framed specs with only one lens in
- blue soccer shorts
- Ripped GESS "volleyball" #7 t-shirt

Name 3 unforgettable events still in your mind:
- March 2005 Easter!
- Yesterday's cellgroup
- this year's birthday

Name 3 of your favourite bands or musical artistes:
- Hillsong
- CHC worship teammmmm!
- Pussycat dolls

Name 3 things essential in relationships:
- Trust
- Cohesion
- Love/Passion

Name 3 things you want to do before you leave this
world:
- be of use to the kingdom of God
- ensure my family is given the best welfare.
- Marry the God-given Girl! (GGG)

Name 3 of your fav type of alcohol:
if i can remember correctly,
- Champagne!
- Bacardi Breezer (any flavour)
- Vodka Redbull
p.s STRICTLY NO SHOTS.

(Cont'd) Fri Night Suntec > Sat Svc > Sun CG + IBP

2006-09-03T21:54:00.000+08:00

oh yeah, where was i yesterday? wanted to reload more photos but i think blogger has a cap on photos per blog. eitherhooochies, yeap! we were at suntec city > esplanade > merlion

here i am posing cheesily with the lovely acryllic-painted card to ivy on her welcome-back-from-HK by our creative Cheryl!

P.S : Ps Phil Pringle usually uses acryllic paint to to do some of his lovely cross paintings. google it up!

Me and Pamela, my sister from another mother. :) haha, i think we (including Althea) were quite high then, we were talking about Singapore Idol.. which PS: Al! your laughters are SUPER infectious... heee.

winnie in her newurbanmale cap aptly called david & goliath, and behind is ivy & candice chatting. we're at the esplanade library, which is a great chillout place recommended by Candice. not bad! except for the constant botherings by the security for our noise (we weren't loud! it was the group next us!)

then we headed over to the fullteron area, and ivy spotted this floor light that beamed upwards. MEET YA MAKER. not exactly a flattering picture. my baby cheeks aren't reflected in a good manner here. and i guess i gotta work on my upper chest more.. it looks like.. NEVERMIND.

and finally, a panoramic (hope i'm using the word correctly here) view of the Merlion from the pier at the Fullerton Area.. awesome night, great company!

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SATURDAY

service was excellent, it talked all about the dangers of being in debt. and how a married couple (which i will be in the future!) would benefit working together as one through many methods such as recording purchases.

i used to do this when i was younger when i started out working at Sizzler, i'd have a little ice cream tub and i labelled receipts and i'd dump all my purchases (which was usually taxi receipts as i was frequently late for morning shift)

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SUNDAY

cellgroup talked about the 4 levels of commitment to a Church vision. it was awesome, the presence of God was very tangible, i felt that this was a sermon that was significant to e374 as we are destined to go from Glory to Glory, aside from the love we have for each other, there is a need to love God fervently and wholeheartedly.

y'see, whether ya a christian or not, ya gotta agree with me on this. LOVE IS A SACRIFICE.

for love, you'd skip your tv programme to fetch your child to work.

for love, you'd miss your regular meal time and eat with your other half.

for love, you'd compromise and eat what your best friend likes.

for love, you'd sacrifice Your son on the cross for the redemption of the world and the promise of salvation.

so, as e374 grows deeper.. let us all have a sacrifice of praise and servanthood as we embark into the levels of commitment, namely, membership, friendship, ministry & missions! :D

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the night was quite productive with the IBP group. yes, DarkInkProductions has been aptly renamed Perennial productions. With the agenda done, we ordered KFC online (after much debate on whether single meals are more worth it than a party meal) and watched "the Longest Yard"

pretty eventful day. and ivy shared with us just now during cellgroup, that sometimes, when you have uncertainty or you don't feel the peace of God in your heart, it's usually a prompting to pray through it. and that's what i will do!

"Because he loves me," says the LORD, "I will rescue him: I will protect him for he acknowledges my name. He will call upon me, and I will answer him; I will be with him in trouble. I will deliver him and honor him. With long life, will I satisfy him, and show him my salvation" - Psalms 91:14-16 (NIV)

so much of God's promises in just 2 verses, how can i not love Jesus? His promises are YES & Amen! :)

HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY!

2006-09-02T00:09:00.000+08:00

yeah, we went ROLLERBLADING on teacher's day! haha, look at our foot sizes.

at one point i decided to whip out my handphone and snap the group together, and apparently cheryl misunderstood i guess adn tried to get out of the way. heeeee!

pamela, cheryl and ivy (winnie came later)..

enjoying the view at the pier/jetty thingy! haha. it was really breezy...

yeap! and joshua taking a pic of me and cheryl .wheeehehehee

afterward, we decided to head down to Suntec City to have a bite..

Cellgroup Chocolate Buffet + Bigen Hair Dye BLACK!

2006-09-01T23:45:00.000+08:00

we had a chocolate spread for a cellgroup refreshment last week! yeah, looks damn droolsome. There's the Milo Cake from althea,cheryl and winnie. Then the hokkaido bread from ivy, the nice chocolate dipped marshmallows and cereal tarts by Candice, and finally, THE MOST CREATIVE AND COLOURFUL MASTERPIECE by Joshua, Jonathan and me, it's called David and Goliath.

If you notice the big bun, that's goliath, and the 4 yellow M&Ms are the stones by david who is the kitkats. the rest are just terrain material. awesome yes? and afterward, we were ALL on a sugar high. haha.

yes, after gazing at Cheryl's ravenblack beautiful hair, she has finally told me that it's from BIGEN BLACK POWDER DYE! :D

so yeap, did it myself, not much difference, but wanted a dark black hair.

but then, after doing the whole thing, it looks so mundane that i wanna dye it multi colours like Ps Zhuang! i am SOOOO fickle minded. >_<

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The Devil wears Prada

2006-08-31T23:27:00.000+08:00

just got back from watching "The Devil Wears Prada" at Bishan GV with Winnie, Cheryl & Candice.

aside from the fabulous wardrobes the ladies possess (OMG LOOK AT ALL THE BRANDIES!!!!! *jumps around like a wild chihuahua*. i took back a few things..

first of all, Andrea (aka Andy) is privileged to be an assistant to Miranda, even though she didn't want the job as badly as others, she was able to inspire Miranda enough to hire her (as Miranda wanted to try something different)

as Christians, we are to be different from the world aren't we? so whenever situation or place we are in, we should always think of it as a privilege the Lord places you in there. There is definitely a reason for where you are now.

****SPOILER ALERT*****

Highlight to see the ending as well as my thoughts!

in the end, andy was able to go to paris instead of the first assistant to Miranda (due to the cold0), but after she quits her job after seeing the lack of loyalty Miranda has to her colleagues, she then decides to pass all the french designer dresses she obtained from the trip to the first assistant.

For once, the assistant smiles, and as she looks over the new person who takes over Andy's job, she tells her "You have a big shoe to fill"

How true! Loyalty is an important aspect in our walk with God. Being loyal to God means that no matter what circumstances, we heed His word. Even if we walk through the valley of death, i have NO FEAR for YOU are with me. Andy's principles mattered much more to her than the materialistic life. Even though she faltered once, she was able to redeem herself with the important decision of leaving the company. Just like God, He is always there to receive you back in open arms.

"you have a big shoe to fill" > Andy left a legacy in the company, being the alternatively dressed girl who stood out from the rest, who served miranda with a spirit of excellence and going the extra mile (instead of just obtaining the harry potter manuscript, she took the extra mile by delivering it to Miranda's daughters). This is what being a person of influence is!

It's a good film overall, i love the dresses and the witty conversations.. and btw, Bishan GV is so spacious and cozy, love it! :D

tomorrow's gonna be a day of fun in the (hopefully) sun! Blading with e374.. well, most of the non-working ones. heeeeeeee. can't wait!!!! ((((:

We are followers of Jesus Christ.

2006-08-30T22:42:00.000+08:00

from my drama friend alan's blog.

"Religion destroys. Religion is man-made. Religion
creates wars upon nations. Religion causes divorces. Religion splits friends
apart. Religion puts a barrier between loved ones. Religion causes confusion. We
are not Religious. We are followers of Jesus
Christ."

Amen!

BIble Studies Revised.

2006-08-30T01:30:00.000+08:00

talking to kelvin from drama, made me remind myself a lot of things

There is a primary and secondary calling for a Ministry you're in.

PRIMARY CALLING - The ministry where God has called me for and the place where i am gifted in.
SECONDARY CALLING - Serving in any other area of the Body (of Christ) where i am needed.

i think this is absolutely crucial, if you fail to plan, you plan to fail. I have to start planning what i want to do for God! Else, everything i'll do will fail!

and after flipping through my past books of Bible Studies, i am so amazed at how much i've forgotten or applied into my life. gosh! what's the use of bible studies if i don't act on the word?!

so time to revise revise and revise. it takes a person 12 times to be exposed to a statement before he remembers it. so yeah, must do do do!

old school pictures (joshua's birthday 2005)

2006-08-29T13:08:00.000+08:00

ah yes, a week back, cheryl emailed me pictures of e374 etc.. recently, and i stumbled across the spread of photos and 2 photos struck me.. it was taken in 2005!

the 2 photos below are around june 2005 (last year!) and that was when i was still quite a young christian then, so pardon the gay-ism in there [as well as the super gay shoulder bag].

oh yes, it was about 1900hours then on a weekday night, so everyone was taking this jurong town bus (24something) and apparently, being the anxious chiongsters to reach josh's house before him (jon brought him out for dinner, part of the plan), we squeezed into the bus, BUT, being the kiasu singaporean, i decided to bring lotsa unnecessary things and it made my shoulder bag look bulging, so when i boarded, guess wad, the driver didn't notice and closed the door, AND MY BAG GOT STUCK.

it was rather amusing to the ppl outside of the bus, seeing some big green round-squared monstrosity being kiap-ed at the door.

val and i in josh's room [the rest: cheryl, deborah and chris i think], getting ready our song of Prophesy by CCC sung to the lyrics of "joshua tan joshua tan, joshua tan joshua tan, joshua tan the anointed one!"

ah yes, memories of yore...

and as i was browsing friendster, i came across one of the church drama members gallery and i noticed a picture of him and a few others and one particular sister which i am quite close to now. even with a aunty-wig and a big mole (those are makeup btw), her features are still distinctive! before i post it up here, i'm gonna ask her permission first. it was rather funny, yet something within me made me feel proud to have a person whom i dearly look up to go through the same ministry as i currently am now. where i would desire to be is where she is right now, full of anointing and the glory of God.

excerpt from a blog bout James 1:19-27.

2006-08-29T03:30:00.000+08:00

I read this blog and it really spoke to me, hope it will to you too! it speaks about James 1:19-27. a bible study and self reflection on an anonymous christian member who is a mother.

it's rather lengthy, but take patience!

(taken from his-way.blogspot.com. )

James 1:19 Post this at all the intersections, dear friends: Lead with your ears, follow up with your tongue, and let anger straggle along in the rear. Let's think this one through. Look at the way our body's are made up. The first thing we see is people's mouths. Our ears are often covered or we just don't notice them first. Our anger is often invisible until we let loose on somebody or something. This verse is telling us to lead with our ears, in other words we should listen first. How often do we actually do that? Do we read between the lines when someone is talking to us? Do we hear what they are actually saying to us? Sometimes the things people say are really a cover-up for how they are feeling inside. If we pray for God to help us lead with our ears, then maybe we wouldn't be so quick to use our tongue in anger. There's another thought - we use our tongue in anger. So that means we let anger lead the tongue. So humanly we hear, but we don't LISTEN so we are tempted to get angry and then speak in anger (or sarcasm). Maybe this is why we get hurt by the things others say. If we lead with our ears (or listen carefully) then we will be able to better understand what a person is saying. God can give us insight to their hearts. Then the words that would come out of our mouths would tend to be more encouraging - meant to lift others up. If we've already listened and then spoken to their hearts, then the anger will naturally follow behind. We would really have very little use for it.

20Your anger can never make things right in God's sight. So, no matter how mad I get about something that doesn't make it right. Even if I have been justly hurt, anger still won't make things right. I guess that's why I need to listen with compassion.

21So throw all spoiled virtue and cancerous evil in the garbage, get rid of all the filth and evil in your lives. Humbly accept the message God has planted in your hearts, for it is strong enough to save your souls. What do I have in my life that is filthy and evil? If I go back to verse 19, then my mouth is definitely filthy and evil. Virtue means moral excellence and righteousness; goodness. So do I have any spoiled virtue? I know that I lack goodness a lot of days. I don't think I always have moral excellence, either. It also says the evil is cancerous. Cancer - a pernicious, spreading evil. Malignant cells that tend to invade surrounding tissue and metastasize to new body sites. Pernicious - Tending to cause death or serious injury; deadly; Causing great harm; destructive. So this evil will affect other parts of my life. This is serious stuff. It's deadly and destructive. It will spread. I really need to get ahold of my anger and my tongue.

22Don't fool yourself into thinking that you are a listener when you are anything but, letting the Word go in one ear and out the other. Act on what you hear! I was just talking to someone today about weight. I have all kinds of knowledge about why I am as heavy as I am and why I can't lose weight. I have done so much research on weight loss. However, I haven't acted on what I know and therefore that's really the reason I can't lose weight. How many times do we read something in scripture and say, "Yeah, I really need to work on that" and then don't bother doing anything with it? We may know our scripture and even be able to quote it and therefore convince ourselves that we are listening. However, if we aren't acting on it, we are deceiving ourselves!

23Those who hear and don't act are like those who glance in the mirror, 24walk away, and two minutes later have no idea who they are, what they look like. How many times do we look in the mirror and we aren't happy with what we see? What do we do about it? Are we actually willing to be disciplined enough to change? I often look at myself in the mirror and I'm not happy about the weight that I've gained. However, I walk away and put it out of my mind because it's too difficult to deal with. In my mind, I'm still the slender person I was at 25 years old. I think I'm much slimmer than I am. I need to accept reality and see things for what they are.

25But whoever catches a glimpse of the revealed counsel of God--the free life!-even out of the corner of his eye, and sticks with it, is no distracted scatterbrain but a man or woman of action. That person will find delight and affirmation in the action. So, apparently because I don't pay attention to what God is saying to me, I am a scatterbrain! The definition of scatterbrain is: A giddy or thoughtless person; one incapable of concentration or attention. A person regarded as flighty, thoughtless, or disorganized. I don't want God to think of me as thoughtless or flighty. I want to be respected by God. And the verse doesn't even say that I have to do it perfectly. It says that even if I catch a glimpse of what God wants, even out of the corner of my eye, if I stick with it then I am a person of action. I will find delight and affirmation in that action. Of course, I will. There is blessing when I am obedient to God's Word. Why didn't I think of that before? If I stick to the weight loss program, then I will be delighted. I guess we need to think about whether we are actually happy with the way we are (whether physically or emotionally) and be honest with ourselves. If we change the way God is showing us, then we will be truly happy and have the abundant joy that God has for us.

26If you claim to be religious but don't control your tongue, you are just fooling yourself, and your religion is worthless. If I can't control my tongue, then the things I do for the Lord are worthless. Just now as I'm writing this, I'm trying to convince myself that I can still reach some people on my good days. But, that's not what the scripture says - it says my religion is worthless. People are watching us and waiting for us to make a mistake. So, we can quote all the scripture we want, but if we aren't living it and controlling the things we say, then we aren't going to get through to people. Maybe that's why I can't seem to get through to my kids sometimes. I can't control my tongue and they know that - therefore, what I'm saying to them is worthless. I'm only fooling myself - I certainly am not fooling them.

27Pure and lasting religion in the sight of God our Father means that we must care for orphans and widows in their troubles, and reach out to the homeless and loveless in their plight, and refuse to let the world corrupt us. If I want my walk with God to be pure and lasting, then I need to reach out to others, including the loveless. I can't let the world corrupt me. Corrupt - Marked by immorality and perversion; depraved. Depraved - marked by immorality; deviating from what is considered right or proper or good; marked by moral corruption or perversion. I don't want to be perverted, immoral or depraved. I can't let what other people do or say to me affect my walk with the Lord. It's up to me to put my ears first and then my tongue and then my anger. Nobody can do it for me. I can make all the excuses in the world, but it still comes down to me. It's my responsibility. I have to make the change. Of course, God is always there to help me, but He isn't going to force me. God waits for us patiently until we draw near to Him. Today, Lord, I commit my life to You again. I renew my faith in You and my walk with You. I don't want to play the "blame-game" anymore. It's no one else's fault. Circumstances may affect my perceptions, but it's still up to me to overcome them. Lord, help me as I lean on You for strength. Help me to make the right choices. Help me to control my tongue and my anger and actually hear what people are saying, instead of just listening to the surface of the conversation. Lord, let me see into their hearts and have compassion for them. Thank You for being so patient with me as I mess up over and over again. Help me to get this right this time. I love you God!

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Friendster Top 10 searches on my network.

2006-08-29T03:17:00.000+08:00

in my friendster acount:

Popular searches in my network
top 40 songs - yes, listening to Fergie's londonbridge, Justin T's Sexy back, Beyonces Deja Vu..
modeling agencies - considering doing a portfolio or else a photoshoot with june, leslie alongside gail jie.
fun algebra - no relevance
Tommy Hilfiger - not much relevance unless ya talking about branded stuff. EDHARDY!
cartoon superheroes - was watching teen titans just now, made me cry la one scene. haha!
inspirational stories - reading Happiness is by Dr AR Bernard, many quotable quotes by World-shakers ala Oprah Winfrey, Billy Graham
latest hair styles - thinking of doing a different hairdo and maybe even a colour
spa - need to relax man
computer virus - just reformatted my cpu
flowers - Happiness book by DR A R Bernard has sunflowers on it. HAHA.

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Uncanny right, i wonder how does friendster compile a list like that.