well, here i am.
Krabi in 2 hours time. and i really shouldn't be sleeping coz quoteunquote colin chong "you'll be grumpy when you wake up"
so yes, i decided to pamper myself by blogsurfing, msn-ing with owls and uploading pictures onto friendster.
what a nightlife.sg moment.
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i haven't really be recapitulating what went on
this whole week
. it's really been a rollercoaster of emotions, from climaxes of camwhoring (thanks van), to confessions to my leader, to renewal of mindsets, schizophrenic decisions and ketching up of loved ones (yes van you again), as well as closer bondings to people i've known for 7 months (mr justin chong zhi da) and linking of friends (MAVIS and *****)
[name withheld in case.. haha]
results have been explained in the earlier post. i guess everyone's pretty much shaken up by the difficulty of admission to local uni. but fer me, i'm just doing what i can, canning what i do, and sitting on the can. let God deal with the rest yo.
i reaally wanna walk in His footsteps.. but there are some things that need to be released and some thats need to be fastended. I'm really going through such turbulent-like times that sometimes when i'm walking with a big group of people.. i just shutup .. walk auto-pilot, and just stare into space, oblivious to on-coming cars and stares.
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as this blog is monitored by a few friends (whom i've spent a LOT of time with for the past 10 months of so). some feelings and musings should best be left kept within my own mind. the privacy really is an important issue. and such topics without supervision nor privacy would lead to a bombardment of unnecessary questions and inquisitions.
anyone that sincerely gives a damn about me (and not just becoz you're a blawdy nosey-parker), take the risk and ask me whats going on that's really slowly eating me inside out.
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oh yeah, a bit belated, but congraulations to Sis. Yah Lan for giving birth to a baby girl! :)
&
happy birthday to 5th aunt! here we are, surprising her at 11pm at her house on friday night.
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I'm not exactly excited for Krabi, 5 days and 4 nights with The Matriach (read: MUM) is a bit overbearing. i could vaguely recall the taiwan and hongkong days spent with her. making me face beet-coloured embarrasment due to UNNECCESSARY bargaining to ridiculous prices in front of a whole flea market.
but still, she has shown unconditional love to me, and has faced torrents of insults and abuse hurlings.. i <3>
but the crux of the matter. I LOVE YOU MUM! :)
* i guess life's really gonna throw you all this bunch of crap and you just have to deal with it.
