armorbearer (2006 blog): June 2006
Monday, June 26, 2006



apparently i like MRT reflections.

i recently bought these delightfully red/white puma "old-school" shoes and while i was teaching my favourite student (no names mentioned here), i realised she was wearing the same colour and pattern. talk about good relations. HURHUR.


Elizabeth & I. funny how much we've grown since we multiplied last year. look at the drastic change.

note the clearer complexions, change in direction of fringes, less retarded faces, more matured looks (glowing from the inside), less red lips and better dress senses. haha.

my oh-my-word-if-she-was-any-cuter-i'd-eat-her cousin Audrey, what a cute mushroom head lar!!


Another IsaacTimothyChanZhiYang first, TRYING ON A PMK shirt. yes folks, this is a pure milk shirt and though i always had comments on it being a AnGStY_GuRLZX87 Shop anD TeChNo^Bo outlet.. this particular t shirt caught my eye. how? it had dangly bling blings from it. note the big pattern? there's some chains there. oh well, here i go to DanCe to TeChno loRHZx~*~*~**~*~.


「 :x all the boys stomp your feet like this x: 12:43 AM 」


Thursday, June 22, 2006



have i made any impact on ANYONE's LIVES?

if you're a good friend.. what's important to me WILL be important to you.

the messaged preached was there are seasons for friends.

i must have been chasing snowflakes in the summer then.

*

i don't know why the idol competition meant so much to me. bah, i can't believe i even teared when i got home. it was so freaking disappointing.

"if you want to know how many good friends you have, just ask yourself how many ppl asked you out for your birthday"

true. i'm trying my best to recollect.

there is ministry superficiality. there is motivation superficiaility. how bout true superficiality?

wait, that's an oxymoron.

You, You are the God who will save,
cling onto all that you say,
and for always...

i don't know.. i'm really starting to be so deceived in my mind. i really got to got to choose WHO shall i press into. and be genuinely concerned.

1 Cor 13:4-5 "love is patient, love is kind. it does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs."

then i'm sorry, my capacity for love isn't that much. i'll start loving people who love me back first. that's the way i go for now.

i can't stand it. i can't believe that what i've done for the past year hasn't impacted anyone deeply.

for heavens sake, just coz i'm an (personality) "I" doesn't mean i'm popular. doesn't mean i'm well-known and well-liked. doesn't mean i'm high profile.

why does everyone drive on the assumption of that?!

does anyone know how insecure i am?
does anyone know how lonely i am!?
does ANYONE know how much i want to do things but i do things the wrong way!?
does anyone know how much i want to know but becoz i do things the wrong way i end up being stupid!?

---k.

i don't know. i really don't know. i wish people would stop thinking on stereotypes and ASSUMPTIONS.

it's silly of me to think that the number of people who came to support me represents my true friends. but i guess that's the way it goes.

and i'm one lonely sad f---.

call me self pity, but i really don't care. you guys don't know how hard it is to love some and not be loved again.

i'm hardening up.
「 :x all the boys stomp your feet like this x: 10:30 AM 」


Friday, June 16, 2006



i've been pangseh-ed (and to the local tongue inclined people ,that means DITCHED, FLY KITE, CANCELLED) for 3 outings this week.

and i ain't too happy about it.

i made plans and turned down others to be with these people.

and then. it gets cancelled. and it's a LAST MINUTE cancellation. how sucky is that.

ngehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

positive positive.

some alone time by myself. whoop de doo.
「 :x all the boys stomp your feet like this x: 2:55 PM 」


Wednesday, June 14, 2006



whoa, nearly a month.

this has been such a stagnant blog. but alas, the time consumed by school and my private life (i.e the newly multiplied e374, shopping, gymming muahaha) has eaten into my otherwise regular blogging time.

anyway, i will be back soon, but please, miss me :)
「 :x all the boys stomp your feet like this x: 3:45 PM 」



whoa, nearly a month.

this has been such a stagnant blog. but alas, the time consumed by school and my private life (i.e the newly multiplied e374, shopping, gymming muahaha) has eaten into my otherwise regular blogging time.

anyway, i will be back soon, but please, miss me :)
「 :x all the boys stomp your feet like this x: 3:45 PM 」