Sunday, November 12, 2006
christian or not,
chc member or not,
you're still a brother to me as well as a friend.
i sms coz i care and i still do about you.
the many outings we had, it wasn't just about godly talk, it was about bonding as friends.
i really don't care what other people said about what you're doing right now or how you feel about the church or God, as long as you're my friend, i shall respect you for your decisions and opinions.
neither will i be fake nor pretentious, but i want you to know that i genuinely still consider you a friend. a friend who has brought me through rather turbulent times, accompanied me through the night on msn, the number of times we played cpu games, the number of times we hung out, the number of jokes we cracked.
they still matter, and they will.
that time when i bumped into you, i genuinely gave you a pat on your back and asked how you were. i didn't ask "how come not in church" or "when you coming back". u know why? i could feel the way you're feeling and i didn't want to jeopardise our friendship based on your decisions. as a friend i should and will respect that cause it's your life afterall.
but i'm taking this time (amongst all the memes) to tell you that you matter to me. I don't care whether you have blocked me on msn, ignored my sms-es etc.. but what you've done for me before remains in my mind and you've honestly been one of the most closest male friend i've had throughout my teen years.
i'm not writing out to gain sympathy, this aren't written by emotions [if it were, it'd be in a much more extreme subtext].
i write by my commitment and my mindset, not by emotions. so i know your compassion for me when i first came in, i know your genorosity when you gave me the billabong pencilcase (which i still use btw).
if i were so angry to you at your actions, would i be writing about the good times we had?
no.
i believe no matter what happens, you have the ability to think for yourself and truly no other human being would know you more than you yourself. And as a fellow human being and a friend, the greatest thing a friend can do is to honour your decisions made.
and i will do that greatest thing cause you ARE my friend, no matter how other people would interpret me.
i'm willing to be humiliated and insulted at through false interpretations of my actions coz our friendship means that much. ã :x all the boys stomp your feet like this x: 1:06 AM ã
